"Well?" I asked eagerly, wanting to get the news he'd been holding from me for a week deciding the right time. "Alyx,, I don't know how to say this, and I'm sorry in advance.." Jacob said. My heart sunk. "No,, I know what your going to say and I don't want you to say it!" "Alyx,, listen I'm sorry it just isn't going to work out, I'm sorry I waited this long." Jacob said half heartedly. Hot tears stung my face as they ran down my cheeks and my stomach felt as if I was about to hurl razor blades. "Alyx,, please don't cry over me it's better this way." Jacob said as he started to inch away. "No" I whispered as I ran back to my house and to my room franticly ranting to my best Friend on snapchat. When she didn't answer I decided to get in my special box, the one that I hadn't touched in months. I fished under my bed for it when my hand ran across the book shaped box I pulled it out and uncovered the top. "My shiny friends, I hate to say this but I seem to need you again" I grabbed the bandages and the rubbing alcohol as I picked up the biggest shiniest sharpest friend in the box and I started to write,, lightly at first and then harder as I felt my rage leek out slowly and then faster and faster and I needed to stop but I couldn't I didn't want to then I started to cry and I put my friend away as it had spilled red ink all over my legs and arms once again.. I put the box away and decided to get in the shower and wash away the horrible horrible day.
