Drown // Josh Dun x Reader

xix. 💧 and yet i still ignore

i started this chapter the day after i wrote the last one but then couldnt find motivation to write and then wattpad stopped working, but now i'm gonna try to update again, so sorry if it's actual garbage, i'm not feeling that great, if you wanna keep up with what's happening, i post about it on my finsta/spam, finni.sdead 

i was sat on tyler and jenna's couch, the two love birds were snuggled together on the love seat adjacent to me, and josh was in the bathroom. it was new years eve, and we decided to spend it together. i was droning out whatever was playing on the tv, i didnt really care to watch it, they rarely ever have artists on there that i like. (like last year brendon was there and that was great) soon enough, josh came out of the bathroom and sat down beside me, close enough that our knees were touching.

"they sure got close quick," i whispered to josh, nodding over to tyler and jenna. he looked over at me with sad eyes, "yeah, they did."

"hey, what's wrong?" i asked him, eyebrows furrowed. "can we go i n the kitchen?" he asked and stood up, grabbing my hand on the way and yanking me with him. "we'll be right back," i said over my shoulder to tyler and jenna as josh dragged me into the kitchen.

"okay, now whats wrong?" i asked josh as he raked his fingers through pink hair.

"i'm surprised about how fast tyler moved on," he said. this confused me.

"what do you mean?"

"you didnt know?"

"obviously not."

"y/n he was absolutely in love with you!" josh whisper yelled. i was shocked. "what do you mean."

"when i went to him to get christmas presents for you, he constantly talked about you, and wheni picked something out that he thought you would like he got sad, almost jealous..." he trailed off.

"i..." i said and peeked into the living room at tyler, he and jenna were engaged in conversation.

i felt bad for not noticing this. "i feel stupid."

"dont feel stupid. he should have spoken up about it," josh said with a shrug and i chuckled.

"besides, he's with jenna, don't feel too bad about it.

"i guess so."

we walked back into the living room, and i felt a tension being released in the air around us. i still felt weird, i was rethinking a lot of things tyler has done and i saw his reasoning in a new light.

i sighed and sank back into the couch, and as josh sat down, i turned my back to him and leaned against him. a moment later i wriggled around and snuggled up against him, feeling his arm wrap around me as i fell asleep, totally disinterested in what was playing on tv.

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"darling, wake up, it's a minute til midnight," i was awoken with a gentle shake and a whisper. i groggily sat up and rubbed my eyes, they didnt have to adjust much as the lights had been turned off and the tv dimly illuminated the room.

thirty seconds later, we began the countdown, i didnt really care all too much (i sat in the dark in my room watching supernatural, i meant to sleep before midnight but i heard fireworks and was like oops, nvm then) but i was excited for josh, this would be a new year for him, and i wanted to try my hardest to make it much better for him.

in that moment i realized, josh was my sun, i revolved around him, and not in a bad way. he was shaping me into a much better, more caring person, and he made my heart pound. i realized something else that night as the clock hit midnight.

"happy new year!" tyler yelled to me, josh, and jenna as fireworks went off outside the apartment all along the beach. tyler leaned down and kissed jenna happily, welcoming the new year in and before i knew it, every thought that i just had about josh ran through my head until i shook myself out of my trance, mouth slightly agape, never anticipating my next action. 

i looked up at the pink haired man, who was smiling at the TV, "josh?" i said quietly as i sat up a bit. he turned to face me and quickly, i cupped his face with a hand and leaned in, kissing him hard. in that moment, my realization was confirmed.

josh was started for a second before he relaxed and kissed me back. i was falling in love with the man i saved from drowning a couple weeks ago.

im sorry this is so short, i wanted to get something out though