The Risks I'm Taking.

Chapter 24 Part 1

Chapter 24 Part 1:

--Allessondra's POV--

It had been a couple weeks since Nicole brought home baby Nolan, and they were currently staying at their new house. Nicole was pleasantly surprised with the present we gave her for both babies, and she even liked the added details that I incorporated in our paint job.

I had helped Nicole with everything she as a new mother would need help with; breastfeeding, diaper changing, bathing. Nicole was like me in many ways, she wanted to be as independent as possible and I understood knowing she'd be alone in just a couple months.

"Peanuts? Refreshments?" A blonde flight attendant spoke from my left in a much too cheery voice.

Noah and I had boarded the plane to New York early this morning. I had wanted this trip to be swift so I could get home to my son and wedding plans, which Nicole and Melanie were arranging while I was away.

"My love?" Noah's deep voice pulled me out of my endless worrying thoughts.

"Yes?" I looked up and the flight attendant stood looking slightly irritated with my long response.

"A drink miss?" The blonde flight attendant smiled trying to be patient and failing miserably.

"Do you serve wine?" I smiled politely.

"Yes ma'am, only our finest. Would you like that?" The flight attendant spoke smiling.

"Yes please. That would be perfect." I nod eagerly at the flight attendant.

I needed something to take the edge off of my nerves, besides I had plenty of hours before the line up to 'sober up'. The flight attendant left quickly.

Noah turned to me and spoke "Alles, are you okay?"

I didn't realize I was biting my lip, something I do when I'm worry excessively. To be completely honest, I wasn't fine. I was sick and worried, I wanted to be home with my son and newly arrived nephew. I was worried about what would happen after the trial and I was worried about the ugly truths that would be displayed when we were at trial. I wanted to tell Noah but It was not the place nor time to do so with so many listening ears, just as I thought it Noah spoke.

"Later then." I nod and smile weakly as I lean against Noah's shoulder and drift into yet another nightmare.

A couple hours later, we were driving to the hotel in a rental car. It was silent as Noah drove with some new pop song softly playing in the background.

"Talk to me, Allessondra." Noah's voice was pained and I felt horrible for not being open with my fiancé then.

"I'm worried about everything, Noah. I'm worried about Nicole stressing herself out with my wedding plans while also taking the responsibility of a new baby. I'm worried about our son; I don't want him to be dragged into this mess because of me and my stupidity. I want to plan my own wedding with you and I want this rape case to be over. I'm scared you'll leave when you hear the disgusting details of how h-he raped me when I'm on the stand-"

I didn't get to finish because Noah pulled over as I sobbed into my hands about my worries, doubts and fears.

"Please don't leave me, Noah." I sobbed loudly shaking.

I then realized why I was so upset by the trial coming into my life; I was scared to lose Noah. Noah bought me back from a dark place; Noah healed my scarred heart and handled it with the utmost love and care. I was scared.