don't tell me now|| pjm

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(3:17 A.M.)
to: jiminie
- chim?-
-are you awake?-

you had no hopes the boy would reply at such an hour, but you were hoping to find comfort in him. your hair lay stuck to your sweaty forehead and tiny droplets of sweat started to play chase down your neck. you had dealt with nightmares for a while, but never to such an excruciating extent.

-you were running. blindly. running your hands against a rough wooden wall to give you some sense of placement. your hands caught on splinters and the sting in your fingers was nothing compared to the adrenaline in your veins. you hear a faint cough, one that sounded full of pain and desperation. you increase your speed. a blinding light stops you in your tracks and suddenly you're in a white room. blood coats the walls and so do visible handprints. your shoes slide in the amount of blood and you slip, trying to catch yourself, and feel a sting in the palm of your hand. stuck in your hand was a tooth covered in coagulated blood. you force down the bile burning your throat and notice a white sheet in the corner of the room. it jerks every few seconds and as your instincts tell you to flee, your heart displays sympathy, and you inch closer. you kneel, grabbing the spoiled cloth, and slowly pull it away from the shaking form. two indulgent brown eyes peer into yours and you can't help but notice the electricity you feel course through you.
it was jimin.
your jimin.
bloodied beyond recognition. bruises and cuts littered his smooth skin. blood vessels in his eyes were popped. his plump lips were dry and cracked and you saw his tongue poke out to coat them in a deep red saliva. blood, some fresh and some dry, covered him like a thick blanket. teeth were missing. gashes littered his fragile torso. even his earring was torn out. nothing was left untouched.
"you see what you did to me?"
jimin slowly drawled, lifting a shaky hand to cup your cheek. you felt a tear trail down your cheek and jimin's soft touch came to wipe it away.
he smiled, a mess of broken teeth and bloodied gums.
"you killed me."-

you tried to erase the whole memory from your head, but it clung to you like a newborn to a mother's breast. your heartbeat had sped to an uncomfortable rate and you took a shaky breath in to calm your nerves. you glanced at your phone and noticed a message you had missed 6 minutes ago.

(3:23 A.M.)
from: jiminie
-im up-
-what's wrong?
     you contemplated the available options in your head. lay awake all night and be a walking carcass tomorrow or confide in jimin so you can at least get a few hours of sleep? you went with the latter option and shot a text back immediately.

(3:23 A.M)
to: jiminie
-nightmare. please come.-

(3:24 A.M)
from: jiminie
-omw-
     leaving your room, you walked into the living room and twisted your fingers around the switch of a lamp. illuminating the room, you also turned on the heater to get the chill off of the house. sinking down into the couch and clicking on the tv for background noise, you waited.
     and whether it was your nerves or the feelings you had pushed deep back into your mind, you couldn't help the warmth rising up your neck. actually, you knew what it was and the thought of being in love?
                         absolutely repulsive.