anxiety is so funn!!!!
i love crying because my stomach hurts so bad because i don't want to go to practice :))))
i also loVE being forced to go because your aunt is in the car!1!!!1!1!
not knowing why you're crying is the besttt
knowing that you're not gonna make the a team because you've missed so many practices is so exciting!!
i have no idea why people don't like this!!
but seriously
i hate this so much
i just want to go home
my parents payed so much for this and i'm trying to be grateful but it feels like i physically can't
also yesterday was my first day of christmas break and i was crying in the car with my mom while she was yelling at me "don't be like that"
and "stop crying when you commit to something you commit" long story short i didn't go and ended up having to go the mall with tears streaming down my face
i wanna go home
i'm so scared
what if they ask me why i wasn't here yesterday?
or if they yell at me cause we didn't send an email this time
i wish i never did thisss
why did i think this was a good idea
it's my fault
and what if they gave them the black shirts and i'm the only one not wearing it
ughhhhhhhh
i wanna cry again
but i freaking can't
cause my mom is gonna yell at me again and my aunt is here
i hate this
i'm scared
i'm gonna go and attempt to calm myself
okay bye
