Dangers Back:

Chapter 50

Shaking my head, I turned my attention back to Kelsey, "nah, I'm good. Thanks."

Leaning over me to peck Kelsey on the forehead, she patted my back before leaving the room and disappearing around the corner.

"You need to wake up for me baby," I murmured quietly once he coast was clear. "It's not the same without you."

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath in through my nose before exhaling, my eyes burning from all the tears they had produced the last couple of days.

It had been a week now since Kelsey was admitted and with each passing second, I could feel myself growing more and more impatient. The fear of her never waking up and not being able to see her eyes or hear her beautiful laugh crept in every once in a while, pulling and tugging on my heart strings until I couldn't bear the thought any longer.

I refused to let believe this was it for her.

She had so much to overcome, so much to see... I had so much to show her. She had only seen the world I lived, but she never saw the other side of it.

On her second day, she stopped breathing and they had to input a tube through her head to help the flow of oxygen.

On the fifth day, she moved a finger, but the doctors said it was normal. In some cases, those who were in her situation would have the power to move at times but it didn't mean she was awake.

Kissing her knuckles once I brought her hand to my lips, I let the heat of my contact give her the warmth she needed.

The doctors refused letting me sleep in the same bed with her so I did the best I could to let her know I was here.

Thumbing past her hairline, I inwardly winced at the bruises scattering her face before I brushed my knuckles against the finger marks left on her neck.

I punched a hole in the wall when I saw it.

She was the love of my life, the light in the darkness that surrounded me every day. She was the only person who held my entire being in the palms of her hands and had the power to break me with just one snap.

She was my whole world and right about now it felt like it was falling apart and she was falling down with it.

The worst feeling in the world is knowing you couldn't save the one you love when they needed you the most. Knowing she was helpless and begging for mercy and all you could do now is sit and stare at the damage done in return of your mistakes.

I could hear her every time I close my eyes like a broken record, my name falling helplessly through her parted lips, echoing why in the distance.

Why.

The simple question I had no answer to.

Why did I let her down? Why did I get thrown in this mess? Why was she still with me? Why did she get hurt? Why did life tend to fuck me over and over again? Why can't I be happy? Why can't she be happy? Why can't we be happy?

Why can't we be happy...?

"Do you remember when I was here not even a few months ago and you were sitting here telling me that I should pull through?" licking my lips, I took a moment to myself to compose the tears that threatened to fall, "telling me I was strong. Well, it works both ways you know because I'm going to need you to wake up for me. I'm going to need you to open those pretty eyes of yours so you can remind me why I continue to breathe every day... I need you to be okay because I need you in my life. I need you with me because without you it feels like I'm nothing. There's no reason for me to live if I don't have you."