River of tears

A girl Cried Wolf Part One

I feel all alone.... I feel worthless I feel hated I wish they can stop because to them I'm a failure a complete FAILURE! All my life I try to make them proud and show them how good I am, I tried to see the good in them but I guess they have no good in them.. I want all this to end but I can't I just want to run away and never come back I can't bare to see there faces, I don't want to see there faces because all they will say to me is that I'm a failure and worthless and stupid because that's all I am.. The saddest thing is that when someone says words over and over to you, you'll start believing in those words that has been said to you everyday.. and because of it I have depression now I think bad about myself  I'd rather switch place with a homeless person, And if I didn't care about anyone right now then I wouldn't be in this world living in all this pain, but since I care about my siblings and friends I am here living this pain of a nightmare..

I just want all this pain to go away I want them to appreciate who I am and what I do, but they just can't see that in me I love them but I feel like they don't love me. They give me everything but they're so strict, I'd rather get my phone and all of my electronics taken away then be hit for whatever I did wrong, and instead of doing that they should sit down with me and tell me the right way not use violence.. I want a normal family all I ever wanted for Christmas is for my family to be happy again..!

Because I don't care about presents I don't believe in Santa Claus I care about god and his miracles, because that's what Christmas is about! God not a fiction character from a book that's so jolly. But either way I do like this boy in my class and he does make me smile well basically my friends by my side like my best friend, Kayla has always been by my side through the bad and good but I know I can count on her! She would never betray our friendship she never has or had, I tell her everything like what I'm dealing with in my life and I've always wanted to go live with her, because I don't want to be treated badly at home again and be called stupid and worthless because I almost lost all of my self confidence. I feel bullied inside by my parents I just want them to see who I really am and what good I am to the world, well actually I don't feel like that anymore because now I feel like a failure to all in my path and now I can't find the light in my dark path.. I feel like In my future will be no future ahead of me because of them.

Oh and if I didn't introduce my self my name is Cassie and this is my life...