Perfect Boy

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Dear Jayden,

It's me, Colt. I'm writing to you because-

Forget that. To be honest I don't know why I'm writing this.  Technically I am not even writing to you, right? I mean, I know you will never read any of this, so this letter-or whatever it is, really,-  is not for you.

Maybe that is exactly the reason why I'm writing it.

Maybe I just do this because this way I'll be able to say all the things that have been hunting me for the past months.There are too many things, Jayden.

And sometimes I feel like no one understands.

I have done many wrong things. And I know I'll never be courageous enough to say it out loud, so I just take this pen and write them down even though I know no one will read them.

I am a coward, Jayden.

And I'm so sorry.

But I find a little peace on writing down what I would want you to know, so I'll just pretend  you are in my room with me and I'm actually saying this out loud and start again.