This is gospel | finn wolfhard | ON HOLD

- Part 2- -different-

As I walk out of the school doors I could hear footsteps getting closer. Weird. I turn around to see who's following me only to be met by Finn's soft brown eyes.

"I want you to know something." He stated. I keep walking to distract myself from the fact that he'll never be my friend. He can't be.

"Talk fast. I have a lot on my mind." I order. He nods and speeds up his walking to match mine. His black curls bouncing each step he takes.

"So, your speech you told me today. Why? Why would you want me to leave you alone? It doesn't make sense! I don't care if I get treated the same way as you! I'm different and the only person who noticed that is Noah. After class I talked with him a little more than I did in class. After talking for a while, I could tell he felt uncomfortable. He knew I wasn't the same. He knew there was something 'wrong' with me." Finn explained. I stop walking and so does he.

"Finn. For the last time. You're probably gonna grow up and become somebody famous. I saw the way you acted today. You were amazing! There's not point for you to be waisting your time with me. I'm gonna be a damn nobody. A nobody! And if you wanna stay around, then do it. If you do stay around I hope you know your life won't be the same. It Will be a living hell with nobody else to talk with or even look at. Nobody Will Even look back at you, not even your reflection in the mirror." I explain. Finn's facial expression changes and he starts walking in front of me. I shake my head and turn onto my street. A couple of kids run past me and screaming. I looked at their scared faces and realize in the reason they're scared. Because of the way I look and act. My clothes. They're to dark and gloomy. I'm not gonna change it though. That's me. 

  As I walk through my old house door my dad comes walking over to me.

"Y/N, why are you late. You know I don't like it when you're late. It makes me scared." My dad says and puts his hands on his hips. I sigh and put my weight on one side and began to explain myself.

"This boy, Finn, wouldn't leave me alone. I'm sorry Father." I explain and try to walk away. That was until my father grabbed my arm. The emotion on his face was a different one than I thought. He had a smile... why?

"Somebody is talking with you? That's great! Honey, you're gonna become popular and have friends again! Go take a shower and get ready for dinner. We have to tell your mother!" My dad smiled and ran to the kitchen. I breath in and exhale all of the butterflies that gathered in my stomach. For once he didn't make me talk about why I was late for hours and not taking my excuse. I walk into my room and see my little sister snuggling with my stuffed animals. I couldn't care less, at least she stays with me- 

"Get out. I gotta get changed Arida." I order. She smiled and happily obliged. I gather some clothes and walk out of my room to the shower room. From downstairs I could hear my family sharing memories and more. Something I'm not invited to do. After all what memories do I have? I close the shower room door and start to strip from my clothes. I start the water and let me do what I need.

After a while of cleaning myself I hear a loud noise from downstairs. At first I thought it was something falling over, no. After thinking I knew exactly what it was. My mother has epilepsy. She must be having a seizure. I immediately stop the water and get changed into the clothes I had brought in. I think about the scene that my six year old sister has to watch every now and then. What a horrible sight. As I think about it I wonder what could have Caused it? Many times it's flashing lights, or loud noises. I never herd a loud noise before that.

I race down the hallway to me greeted by my shaking mother and terrified father. My sister was sitting over in a corner with her hands over her ears and closed eyes. Jeez. My father, who is now shaking, holds the phone in his hands and calls the paramedics. Never did I think about this night taking this much of a drastic turn.

As much as I wanna see if my moms okay, I do have school work I need to get finished. My mother and father never really do pay much attention to me anyways and they do t really care what REALLY happens in my life. I sigh and walk over to my little sister. I should probably take her away from this upsetting scene. I pick her shaking body up and carry it down the hallway and into my room. As I set her down on my bed she doesn't let go of my body. She needs help. I decide I Will let with her until she calms down or goes to sleep. I know she Will do either of the two. If she doesn't, I'll make her.

It's about 12 now and neither one of my parents have came into my room to check on me or Arida's current state. I stare up at my black ceiling as I await for Arida to proceed to fall asleep. She's still scared and won't let go of me. I need to sleep.
I decide I'll fall asleep and see if it changes her mind.

As my prediction was wrong, she never let go of me and is now sleeping by my side. The amount of space that is between us is probably enough for me to slip out of bed. Now THAT prediction was correct. I cautiously slip out of bed and get changed for school. Even if I begged my parents to home school me, they wouldn't. They know what happens At school and proceeds to not care. I pick out a outfit and decide to get changed in the middle of my room. Not like Arida would care anyways.
I slip on my black pants and dark green shirt along with my black hoodie. I look over at my young sisters sleeping body to see color. Green, blue, red, and yellow. I was never dressed like that as a kid. Maybe that's why I'm this way now. I sigh and grab my stuff for school and slip out of my room. As I walk down the hall I see my mother sitting on the couch drinking her early morning coffee. I decide to skip breakfast and just eat lunch at school.

"Sleep well?" My mother asked me while watching the news.

"Yes, did you?" I respond and correct my posture. She nods and takes another sip from her coffee. After walking out the front door I could already hear my stomach growling. I had never ate the dinner last night. Not like I wanted to eat that scrappy food anyways. I glance around and see no kids around my general area. Not even a single black curl of hair. I smiled for once and started walking faster to class. Like always, I head to my locker and grab the essentials for class. Just like yesterday I have the same schedule. When I walk into class peoples smiled fade once more. Their faces become unsatisfied and uncomfortably take out their school work. I sit it the back where no other kid dares to even look at. That was until Finn. I haven't seen his brown eyes today. Not even a curl of his hair. Yes, it's only been three minutes, but it's bad to be late in this school. I hadn't seen his hair until twenty seconds ago when his hair bounced right into the classroom. His face was worried and filled with concern. I don't dare to ask the question from our talk yesterday. I watch as he slowly takes off his jacket once more. Today he's wearing a black sweater and blue jeans with the same shoes.

"Alright, get with your partners from yesterday and continue on." The teacher demands. Shoot. I'm gonna have to pair back up with Finn again. I doubt he wants to be partners with me still. Why would he anyways. And another prediction was wrong. He scoots his chair closer to me and opens his book.

"Shall we start?" He repeats yesterday's line. I shrug and turn the the page that was needed.