When you text me I answer as soon as the notification goes off. when I text you I forget about my boyfriend I forget about all the times I spent crying in the shower over you I forget the way you treated me if you didnt get your way and I forgot that I could be strong without you
When you text me I remember every nice moment every kiss every touch every laugh and every smile I remember how alive I feel with you and I wonder why did we ever stop ....then we stop and im lost and confussed because i count on you I am alive with you and without you I am broken.
All my friends my family and counselors tell me to stop and I do but as soon as my phone goes off my phone was already replied and sent in that first 20 seconds and we talk
for a month I was strong I wanted nothing to do with you I found a boy who loved me for me I found a voice I found alittle happiness.....but its monday morning 12:00 am and i am sitting awake waiting for that phone to go off because you were bored .....thats all the text said
"Im bored" I could of ignored it my phone was across the room i could of stayed in my cozy bed and fallen asleep but somthing told me it was you and to get up and answer it and so I did and here I am .....12:02AM waiting for a response ...
.....Because I love you.....and I know all you wanna do is murder me in the end.....and im handing you the gun.
