Emotions and thoughts

Inlove..

All I feel is rejection daily.. it hurts so much.. this one day I was in a situation on what to do.. overdose or self harm.. i chose neither.. because I love this certain guy so much.. I knew it would hurt him.. I want to make him happy.. but he pushes me away.. and I never know what to do.. I can't move on from him since I love him so much.. I want to be with him but I don't know if he feels that way too... he says he does but he pushed me away over telling a guy his username on Kik because I got upset and he wanted to help.. I wanted someone to talk to.. and I wanted to talk to my crush.. but he was pushing me away.. I don't know if he got jealous or what.. but he pushed me away.. it hurts.. I love him so much that's the problem..

I just want us both to be happy.. like yeah.. I'm 15.. and people are bound to think (ur young you have your whole life infront of you) well I see different.. I fucking love this guy so fucking much.. I've wanted to end everything so many times.. but I don't do it.. because I love him..