Dream🛌 Boy🤾

Confusion🤦

"Awwww,"I screamed in my head. Why do guys have to be so complicated?😣It seems like you move two steps up to get knocked three steps back. He likes me, he don't, make up your mind, I can't read it. 😔He makes me feel like I have a chance with him and sometimes don't. It's like I'm his back up plan when he can't get a girlfriend. It's driving me insane, I can't get him out my brain. This can't be happening, I have all these mixed feelings😵. I asked my mom why do I keep thinking about him and she said,"This is no ordinary crush, you're in love." I said,"No this can't be happening, I'm only 16! I have my whole life ahead of me," but I know deep down I love him and he's also just playing me. Everytime I look at him I feel the urge to kiss💋 him but I know he doesn't feel the same way about me. He says we are just friends 🤝but I fear he's lying to me. Maybe he's just afraid of loving someone or getting hurt but I know deep down he likes💏 me and he wants to say it to me. I don't think i'll ever have the courage to tell him that I love❤️ him unless I know he feels the same way for sure. There was this one time with a basketball 🏀court and then we were in front of each other and it seemed like we was going to kiss😚 and I should of leaned in but I bucked at him because of the nerves and I was scared😱,I was afraid of getting to close. I don't know what's going to happen next?🤔 Don't you ever feel like you were made for each other but at the same time your not. Its like the movie,"The Notebook."📔 they seem to fit but they mostly fight, it's like that but he flirts with me and I try not to get to attached and when I do I get stabbed in the heart💘and when I try to forget about him he pulls me right back in like a fish on 🎣a pole. What to do,what to do! Help me,help me! I scream in confusion. Why me? Why? Why?