To All That Are Wanting to End it all.

Listen...

  Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your sibling knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don't answer, so they walk in. All they see is you laying on your bed, so they think you're asleep. He/She tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that "Mommy is crying and brother/Sister won't wake up." Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what's going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at college , there's an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they've said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can't help but hate himself for never telling you how good you really are. Your ex, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. They can't handle it. They break down and start crying, and blames Them self . Your friends? They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? They're in shock. They can't believe it. They knew what you were going through, but he/she never thought it would get that bad... Bad enough for you to end it. They can't cry, They can't feel anything. He/She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It's a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that Kid with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone's crying, your little sibling still doesn't know you killed yourself, They're too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts them, a lot. You were his big brother/ sister , you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, they stay strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground,they just lose it. He/She cries and cries and doesn't stop for days. It's two years later. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex girlfriend doesn't know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with boys . Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? They tried to kill them self. They didn't succeed like you did, but they tried...your little sibling? They finally found out the truth about your death. They self harm, They cry at night, They do exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don't just affect you. They affect everyone. Don't end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can't get better if you give up. I'm here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we've NEVER talked before, I'm here for you.