Finding herself

Depression is what i call it

Liza's POV:
Time for another day for school filled with miserable sayings ,talks,and other things filled in the world,I'm not looking for a relationship after what happened to me but I never share that to anyone,it stays to me and the other person who did it to me,I walk to the bus stop alone as usual,there's only one person in this worked who keeps me alive,and that's because of how much her cares for me,David Walks towards me,I roll my eyes here's another conversation of telling him no again
D:hey Liza
L:what Dobrik?
D:what's wrong? You've changed since you came back from summer camp
L:it's something called depression and some people struggle from that
D:Liza would you like to maybe talk about it on a date sometime
L:sorry Dobrik I told u I'm not looking for a relationship
D:I know but if u need anyone to talk to I'm here for you
L:your such a weirdo Dobrik
D:thanks koshy
We get on the bus,I love how much he cares about me,but I need time to get my self together,before I ruin anything else for anyone else,we get off the bus and arrive to school,I walk to my locker,and some guys walk past me and grab my ass calling me sexy and others names like that,I'm not strong enough to stand up to them so I can't do anything or else it will be a repeat of the summer camp visitation,David comes up to them and gets in their faces
D:don't touch her like that
Jock 1:what u gonna do about it little boy
D:get you off the team
Jock 1:ok chill dude we'll leave her alone
D:better
They run away and David turns to me
L:Thanks but I don't need you to fight my battles for me
D:i would do it anytime for you,anything,anytime
L:don't be such a dush bag Dobrik and here hand out these to everyone
I hand him flyers
D:but...
L:you said you would do anything for me right
D:uhhh
L:that's what I thought
D:ok damn
L:oh and meet me back here at exactly 5,and if I was you I wouldn't be as sexual anymore
D:damn little lady
L:thanks now get out of my face until 5
D:ok damn
He turns around and walks away I let out a breath of relief
L:I can't believe I just did that!
The bell rings and it's time for my first calls so I walk there
-5-
I meet David at my lockers
D:I handed out the flyers to everyone
L:ok good now you can come over to help me out with he school campaign project for the school dance Friday,can't you do that tuff guy
D:gladly
L:hm
D:hm
We walk to my house and get along on the way there
-Liza's-
We arrived to my house and were in my room doing the campaign project for the dance we laugh and make jokes
D:you have a beautiful laugh liza
L:thanks bitch not to had your self
He laughs
D:you not just a good girl you have a bad ass side
L:don't we all
D:what's this
He point over it a book sitting on my dresser
L:that's my grandmother poem book she passed away a few years back
I hold the book admiring it
L:she said there was something special for me in here but I guess I just never had the guts to open it
D:well how about now
L:I don't know if I should
D:you loved her
L:yeah we had a lot in common
D:how did she find inspiration
L:she would take small little moments in life and put it in a poem,each day she would fill a chapter with her emotions that day and just let them out on paper it was like her diary just put in poems
I start to cry and David lifts my chin up
D:I'm sure she would want you to open it
I sigh
L:r u sure you would want to listen to this
D:I have time
L:ok
I open to the first page and start to read
L:this is called the kiss
We laugh
L:my mouth blooms like a cut,I've been wronged all year,tedious nights,nothing but rough elbows in them and delicate boxes of Kleenex calling crybaby craybaby,you fool!
Before today my body was useless,Now it's tearing at its square corners.Its tearing old Mary's garments off knot by knot and see ——— Now it's shit full of these electric bolts. Zing! a resurrection!
Once it was a boat,quite wooden and with no business,no salt water under it and in need of some paint.It was no more than a group of boards.But you hoisted her l, rigged her, She's been elected.
My nerves are turned on.I hear them like musical instruments.where there was silence the drums ,the strings are incurably playing.you did this.pure genius at work.Darling,the composer has stepped into fire
D:beautiful mind come from beautiful people
L:why do you do that?
D:do what
L:why do you try so hard for me
D:because I see more in you then you think I do
We lean in for a kiss but I stop
L:ummm I'm sorry
D:no it's fine I'm sorry I shouldn't of leaves in
L:you want to just keep reading
D:sure
L:this poem is to my beautiful grand daughter Elizabeth shilia koshy and all the small talks we have,Do you remember when you were a child and you thought that when you became a teenager when you became older,you would party every night until 4am
It's quite ironic because little did u know that at 4am you'd be hysterically crying debating whether to take your life or not
D:they were passionate
L:what?
D:the talk,you told her everything,she was your go to person
L:how would you know that?
D:your eyes glisten when something happens and I always remember beautiful eyes
We stare into each other's eyes
L:ummm how about another poem
D:sure another filled emotion on paper if her beautiful moment with her beautiful granddaughter
L:tell me i you ever cared,if a single thought for me was spared.Tell me when you lie in bed,do you think of something I once said.Tell me if you hurt at all,when someone says,my name with yours.it may have been so long ago,but I would give,the world to know.
D:I think of you every night I lie In bed and think of the wonderful times of spent with you and your the only thing that comes to my mind,and it clogs up everything blocks out and it's all about Elizabeth
L:awww David
D:Liza if you don't already have a date,would you like to go to the dance with me?
L:id love to but friends only
He sighs
D:friends only
L:ok
D:I better get heading home it's getting late
L:stay the night you can sleep on the air mattress
D:you sure?
L:totally
D:ok
I set up the air mattress next to my bed and we both fall asleep staring into eachother a eyes
Am I watching feelings for David?
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I'm super proud of this chapter
DxL❤️
Detecated to basmadxl