Painless Goodbye

Consistency fears me

My anxiety stalks it like prey

Hoping that it will change its mind

and come home

I found it once it was at the corner of Hope

and I'm alone

Its a crossroad that has potholes

Every stone in my shoe a reminder

The holes growing deeper with doubts

worries making it grow wider

Yet here I am

Thinking it will be okay again

Consistency still fears me because I have no home

It isn't humble or forgiving

Its hard and cold like stone

My heart has died

and I'm alone

I'm stuck somewhere between

a house and a home

No one ever told me that

Your heart is in your home

If you think back that makes sense

because our home was always cold.