Its funny how you think people like you. To think that your their best fucking friend. I was their toy to torture. For them, I was nothing. I felt nothing after a while.
I didn't realize that they were killing me till they brought her up. My mother. Left me alone, she was my best friend.
Before you think she's dead, she's not. Just not living with me. I'm too depressed to even THINK about her.
As a 5 year old, I didn't understand. And I might never understand the reason why she left me, my brother who was younger than 3 years old, my father who worked day and bight for us to have a home and food on the table. SHE LEFT US.
I started elementary school, I was alone till u met a girl, we'll call her Abby. Abby became my best friend. The one who I could tell all my secrets and she wouldn't tell a another living soul. I thought of her as a sister.
We grew apart....
She found new friends...
better friends...
She didn't want to deal with me anymore. She left like the others did.
my brother and I grew distant... my father became an alcoholic.... me still being my depressed self turned to cutting.
I
Never
Meant
For
It
To
Get
This
Far
I just wanted to be happy. To be happy like the other kids I knew. They didn't cut like I rid but that'd the only way I felt relief for the world. For all the stress and pain. I became numb. I wanted to be numb.
But then.....
Name calling
Picking on me
Hurt by the ones I trusted
I thought my heart learned its lesson by what happened in elementary school but it didn't. Middle school started...
It only got worse.
ESTÁS LEYENDO
broken into pieces
AcciónThis is my pain and sadness written out. Not for you to judge but to see the real me. To see how much pain I have gone through. Has suicide and cutting thoughts, may be triggering
