Finding You In The Apocalypse

Carl! No!

Emily's POV

Well we just found out that Glenn got the sickness about a hour ago. He's been getting sicker and sicker by the minute. Sasha and Lizzie are still sick too. Lizzie isn't as sick as the others. More people died. We are still under quarantine which I'm a little upset about cause I miss the others. Daryl, Maggie, Glenn, Michonne, Rick and Carol. I see Hershel cause he keeps me updated on what is going on but we still can see the other people sometimes just not stay I'm the same block. Rick is going on a run with Carol today.

"Carl! Emily" I hear Rick's voice say. Carl and I go to see him.

"I'm leaving now with Carol. Be safe. Check on the fence every now and then and if anything goes wrong get Maggie" Rick says. We nod.

"Are Daryl, Bob, Michonne and Tyreese back yet" I ask.

"Not yet. They've only been gone for two hours Emily" Rick says. I nod and he leaves.

"C'mon" Carl says taking my hand and leading me back into Block A.

"Hey Beth" I say.

"Hi Emily. Can you feed Judith for me" she asks.

"Sure" I say to her. I grab Judith and cradle her in my arms feeding her. She has a little smile on her face.

"Your beautiful" I say to her. She finishes her bottle and I put her in the crib. I start to put more ammo in my gun when Carl passes me.

"Hey babe. Come with me" Carl says leading me into the tombs.

"Where are we going" I ask him.

"In here" he says leading me into a boiler room. There is a big blood stain on the floor and a knife too.

"My mom died in here" he says letting tears roll down his cheeks. "It's been ten months" he says.

"Carl I'm so sorry" I say pulling him into a hug. "C'mon let's go upstairs" I say to him.

"I can't" he says.

"We have to. Beth and Judith can't stay in block A by themselves and we need to kill a few walkers by then fence" I say to him.

"No I mean I can't do this anymore. I don't want to live. I want to die right here. Right here where my mom died" Carl says crying". I was shocked by his words.

"Carl! Stop thinking like that. You can't die. I wouldn't be able to handle it" I say to him.

"I need to. My mom needs me. Now leave me alone" he says. He takes out his knife and starts to put the blade near his wrist.

"Carl! No!" I scream at him and slap the knife right out of his hand.

"Stop! I want to die! I want to die" he screams crying very hard. I pull him into a hug. He hugs back and we sit down on the floor.

"Shh. It's okay" I whisper into his ear.

Carl's POV

Emily pulls me into a hug and sits down in the floor with me. I actually don't want go die but I can't do this anymore. I just can't. I miss my mom. My father doesn't let me do anything. My girlfriend well she's all I have left. Emily is all I have and if I die I know she would never forgive me.

"I'm sorry" I say to her.

"Don't be. It's okay. But please don't ever talk like that again" She says to me. I nod and kiss her. We pull away and start to walk upstairs. Once we get upstairs Emily tells me to go and lay down so I do.

Emily's POV

I told Carl to go lay down and that I would be with him in a minute. I need to tell someone what happened. I can't tell Rick. I can't tell Beth or Maggie cause then they would just tell Hershel. Glenn is sick so I can't tell him. I would tell Daryl but I can't talk to him about Carl's issues cause Daryl would also tell Rick. Michonne doesn't really seem like that person to talk to about this. Carol. I'll tell Carol when Rick gets back. I go to see Carl.

"You okay" I ask him.

"Yeah I'm better" he says.

"Good" I say to him. "I wouldn't want you to die" I say.

"Don't worry. I'm not going anywhere" Carl says. Then we hear a car.

"Let's go. I think Carol and your dad are back" I say to him going outside.

"You go. I will be there soon. I'm just going to take a nap" he says. I nod.

Maggie opens the gates and Rick gets out of the car. I wait for Carol to her out of the car. I run to Rick.

"Where's Carol" I ask confused and Maggie has the same confused look on her face.

"Listen. I'm going to tell you something but you have to promise not to tell anyone especially Daryl" Rick says. We nod.

"I had to kick Carol out of the group because she killed Karen and David" Rick says.

His words make me break down in tears.