"Why are you crying mami, they're hoes, let hoes be hoes" he said his accent thick.
He rubbed his thumb over my bottom lip.
"They're right, I'm just a charity case, what am I supposed to do, she beats me everyday and then she leaves me to the men she brings home," I said crying harder.
"I'll handle her,"
"No it won't make anything better,"
"I'll do what it takes I love you, I don't know how many times I have to tell you this,"
"Why, I'm ugly, skinny, I have nothing," I said into his chest.
"You have me," he said lifting my chin.
"Do I?" I said searching his eyes for something.
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A A M I N A
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I wiped kleenex over my eyes. That was the night he died and I didn't even tell him I loved him, in fact, I questioned his love for me.
I pulled on my lace lingerie as I prepared myself to go on stage.
"And now we have Aamina," I walked onstage smiling, but the feeling of disgust was high on the inside.
My own mother forces me to do this shit evey night. Afterwards I go home and she let's me keep half but I've been saving up to get better clothes and some extra stuff that I have to hide. If I don't, my sisters will steal it and the money I saved.
I did my routine and collected my money. I ran off stage to make it home, when my mom's boyfriend, Marcel stopped me. He runs the club and he thinks he can fuck around and try to mess with me but it doesn't go down without a fight.
"Mmmm Gia you looking good tonight," he says moving my hair out of my face.
"I have to go, my mo-,"
"I don't care about your mom, I just need you to satisfy this b-,"
"Don't even finish, I don't have time for you, I'm not about to do whatever you want cause I work for you, I have to GO," I said trying to get past him. I felt him pick me up and I immediately started screaming. He tried to move my lingerie when i started punching him. I felt a punch to my stomach and everything I ate came up.
"You bitch," he grabbed my hair and punched me in my face before I got out his grip and ran to get my stuff. I gathered my money and ran out, I couldn't help but let the tears run down my face. I wiped my eyes as I watched the last bus pull off from the stop I was supposed to take. I threw my stuff on the ground as I cried into my hands.
I felt a tap on my shoulder and I saw the same dude from school.
"You aight," he said .
"No," i whispered.
"What's wrong then," he said his voice raspy and deep.
"My bus just left so I'm stuck here until 2:00 A.M.," I said crying.
"I can give you a ride where you headed,"
"Any where but here," I said quietly. He helped me up and led me to his car. I laid my head down as soonas he drove off and envelopedindeep sleep.
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K A M E R O N
" K I L L A K "
