Warning: This Is What Happens When I Get Bored

I'm Sorry

I'm useless. I'm selfish. I'm a mistake.

I know I am these things because you remind me.

I wish I could be perfect.

I wish I could be the daughter you say I am.

I wish I could be some one you can be proud of.

But I'm not.

I mess up too much,
Forget too much.

My priorities are friends first then family.

Maybe if you had actually been there when I needed you, I would be better.

Maybe if you listened to me, what I have to say, we would be closer.

But you're right. I'm the selfish twit that made us come home early from camping because of homecoming.

An event that is important to me.

I'm sorry, dad. I couldn't be what you wanted.

I probably never will be the daughter you always wanted.

Please don't lie to me by saying I am.

I mess up too much to be her.

If I could leave now, this would be good-bye.

But I can't leave.

I can't leave my sisters alone at home.

So, I must stay.

Thats probably disappointing to you.

I'm sorry dad. I really am.