I lay back crying, hitting my head against the concrete,
I looked up hearing the cars roar across the bridge above me.
I wasn't sure what to do anymore, I knew that I'd be fired immediately from my job for walking out,
I'd have no money for the apartment.
I mess everything up and I never learn, I just wish Scarlett knew how hard I tried and that sometimes I forget that I shouldn't hate myself, but I don't hate myself anymore, but I have a constant impulse to tell people that I'm not pretty or perfect, I wish I could accept these compliments, but I struggle and all these things that people say, and I can't even answer them normally.
I wish the pills had worked a few months ago, because then I wouldn't of hurt Scarlett and messed things up and I'd be dead.
I had to try again, but I had to find the perfect place.
I wrote a note, explaining how sorry I was, I placed a bluebell on the note next to the bridge, scar once gave me a bluebell on this bridge and they remind me of her,
I texted the Alex and scar
"Sorry, I have to, don't hate me, it'll be easier with me gone" that's all I put, I climbed up onto the barrier over the river,
This was how I had always wanted to die, no matter how old I was I had always wanted to die drowning, people say it's the most peaceful death, it's a struggle at first and you fight for breath, but then everything's peaceful and calm and then it ends.
I deserve the struggle.
I leant back, I heard a shriek and I hit the water.
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Falling in Love Alone
FanfictionIris Gaskarth is on tour with the All Time Low boys, But she has other things on her mind, like why is she falling for her bestfriend Scarlett Merrick- WARNING! Some sensitive subjects such a suicide and selfharm