Falling in Love Alone

"Iris" Alex yelled from somewhere in the house,

"Coming" I rolled my eyes, I grabbed my suitcase and attempted to pull it down the stairs, I failed miserably and landed in a heap in the porch, I was going on tour with my older brother and his band, all time low, this is their first world tour though, being dragged around the world doesn't sound at all delightful, it'll hopefully be easier if my best friends coming, Scarlett Merrick, Zachs sister.

"Iris" Scarlett squealed, running from the bus and into my arms,

"Hey scar, how's everything" I said excitedly as we hugged in the doorway,

"Brilliant, Austin asked me out" she beamed, I felt my heart sink in my chest, Ive never felt this way, but for some reason I almost felt jealous, like I didn't want her to have to pay attention to someone else.

We clambered onto the bus and all the boys gathered round to say hi to Alex and me, I avoided them all and retreated to my bunk, I smiled slightly seeing that jack had put all the nightmare before christmas covers on my bed and placed my collection of the adventure time plushes on the cushions, jack was always really nice to me and if there was a problem he could always sort it out, and we shared a love for the nightmare before christmas.

For some reason I didn't want to socialise with anyone, I just felt really down, I never feel this way

before a tour.

I climbed into my bunk and put my earphones in, pressing shuffle, bring me the horizon played loudly.

Id been lay there for ages when jack came and pulled my earphones out,

"What's wrong with you" he asked sitting at the end of my bunk,

"Nothing" I sighed,

"Iris Ivy Titania Gaskarth, you are the worst liar ever, even if your 18" he laughed as I cringed at my full name,

"So, are you going to tell me, or should I tickle It out of you?" he asked smirking,

"I'll tell you" i squealed,

"Something happened earlier, Scar told me she was with a new guy, and I just felt some kind of sinking feeling in my chest, I felt really down, and stuff" I shrugged my shoulders,

Jack nodded,

"It's fine, do you like Scar, as like more than a friend or.." he asked,

"I haven't before no, but you know I'm bi" I looked away slightly embarrassed, the only person who knew was Jack,

"it's fine, try seeing if you can work out why you feel this way, you never know, she could like you back" jack said shuffling out of the bunk, he winked at me and laughed, nodding his head and walking off.

I decided i'd go into the back and socialise for a while.

When I walked in everyone was there, all of them were eating popcorn and talking,

"Hi guys" I smiled slightly,

"You okay iris?" Zach nudged Scarlett to get her attention,

"Yeah, tell us" she dived into my arms, leaving me to carry her,

"I don't wanna" I pouted, sitting on the couch, she still had her legs, wrapped round my waist, she raised her eyebrows, grinding against me, most people would think that really weird, but we were super close, I mean we've kissed and stuff, you'd think we were in a relationship, were not, but I sometimes wish we were,

"Iris!" she was waving her hands in front of my face,

"I know I'm hot, but save it for the bedroom" she whispered in my ear, I smiled at her quote from a you me at six song, she winked at me and stood up, walking into the kitchen,

She could eat anything and still be skinny, where as I could drink water and gain 10stone, I had always been fat, but slowly I just accepted who I was and dealt with it,

Around 2am I found myself on the top of the bus, high and drunk with Mike Fuentes, I have no idea how I got there, but it was nice, I was spilling out secrets I was meant to keep and telling him my wildest dreams,

Before I knew it we were woken by jack, who told us to pretend we were in our bunks because Alex would be pissed off, we both quickly jumped down into the door and into our bunks,