I was pacing back and forth in my room, trying to calm myself down. Maybe Alexander was right. I shouldn't work tonight, not after everything that have happened to me these last days. What if some douche at the nightclub decided to punch me again? I don't know if I can handle more pain at the moment. I could hear the TV from the living room and I know that if I went out there, I would find Alexander sprawled across the couch. Trust me, I feel slightly better that we know a lot more about each other now than we did before, but at the same time, it feels even worse. I mean, I don't know how Alec really feel about all of this. What if he thinks that I'm, or that my mother killed herself because of me? I know that he never would blame her death on me, he have made that clear, but sometimes it's hard to fully trust people. I don't know for how long time I just walked around, but seconds/minutes/hours later, I decided that I had to go to the nightclub anyways. No matter what, I really need the money so I can buy my own apartment. It's not that I don't like living with Alexander, because I really do. I just don't like the feeling that I'm disturbing him. I have never really lived with anyone else than Raphael so I can't say that my social skills are perfect. Sure, I have noticed that Alexander stutters a lot, which probably means that he's just as nervous as I am, but I don't know. I can't read people. I don't know if Alec really likes my company or like I've said before, if he just pitying me. Anyways, I decided to take a quick shower to try to calm my nerves. About 20 minutes later, I was back in my room, this time fully dressed in a pair of black jeans and a grey sweater that I usually wore when I had a shift down at the nightclub. It didn't make me look way too fancy, which made me feel a lot more comfortable because I didn't want some loser to hit on me just because I dressed up too good. When I was done and felt satisfied with my look, I walked into the living room and found Alec just like I had imagined, sprawled across the couch, watching TV.
- Hey, I said and sat down at the other side of the couch
- Hey, are you ready for work? He asked
- Honestly? I don't know
- Magnus, if you're not ready to go back to work and continue with your life like nothing have happened, you don't have to, Alec said and looked at me
- I know, but like I said before, I really need money
- Fine. Can you promise me one thing?
- Of course, I answered
- If anything goes wrong, and I mean anything, you'll call me
- Alexander
- No, I'm serious. Call me, he said
- Okay, I promise
- Thank you
We sat together in silence for a while before I looked at the clock and realised that I had to get going. I said goodbye to Alec and 10 minutes later, I was on my way to the nightclub. When I arrived, I collided with one of my colleagues, Clary. She was a 18 years old girl with ginger coloured hair. I don't really have anything against Clary, it's just, she can be a little bit too much sometimes.
- Hi, Magnus. How are you doing? She asked and smiled at me
- I'm fine. What about you?
- I've never been better. Remember about that guy I told you about last week? Jace? Well, we're dating now, Clary said
- That's wonderful, I answered
Honestly? I wasn't really listening to her. I had enough to think about at the moment, like the constant pain from my whole body. Seriously, it felt like I was going to explode any minute. I went over to the bar where I had my 5 hours shift. As long as no one tried to hit on me or start a right, it wasn't that awful. There was a couple of people that I really didn't like though that usually came to the nightclub. For example, this chick named Camille. God, she's the worst. We had a one night stand some months ago and she really thought we were going to be something more serious. Then of course, when I told her that "us" weren't going to happen, she freaked out. Trust me, I have never seen someone that mad before. She started yelling at me, telling me that I was a whore who deserved to die. I can't say that I deserve it because maybe I didn't handle the situation that good, but she was the one who started throwing a fit about it all. Now, Camille usually comes down to the nightclub only to make out with random strangers in front of me. I'm not really impressed though. Like I said before, I'm not interested in having a relationship with anyone. Well, that was until I met Alexander. Now I don't know. Another person that comes down to the nightclub only to make my life even more miserable is a guy named Luke. He's somehow related to Clary, and his favourite thing in the world is to fuck around with me. I can't really say that he's mean, because he really isn't. Luke is just extremely annoying and he always tries to get free drinks because he knows Clary. Anyways, I had worked for about two hours and so far, no one has tried to take me home. Well, not yet. I was so focused on watching Clary discussing something with some random guy, that I didn't even notice that someone was talking to me. When I turned around, I met eyes with the last person on earth that I wanted to talk to, Camille.
- Hello there, Magnus. Slept with more girls lately? She asked and laughed
- Go away, Camille
- Bitch please. Don't pretend like you don't want to talk to me. I know that you want me, Mags
- I want you to leave me alone, I answered
- Sorry honey, but that's not really an option. How about we go somewhere private instead? She asked and smiled that disgusting smile of hers
- No
- Such a buzzkill, Magnus. What happened to you? Back in the days you used to be fun
- Why don't you go and make out with some random guys instead, Camille? I answered and felt how I started to get extremely irritated
- Why, are you jealous?
- Never in a million years
- You know what? You don't deserve to live. You broke my heart all those months ago. Why don't you just kill yourself? No wait, I forgot that you already tried. Aren't you such a worthless human being? You can't even kill yourself, Camille said and laughed out loud
- Get away from me, I almost screamed and tried to pull myself together
I could not afford to get fired. Not from one more job. I had to handle this like a professional bartender.
- Whatever. I didn't love you anyways. I mean, why would I? You're ugly, Camille answered and thereafter, she left
I felt how my breathing started to hatch, but I wasn't going to cry. Not here, not now. I'm stronger than this. I know I am. I didn't care about Camille anyways. She was just a one night stand to forget all about my miserable life.
- Why are you even talking to her? Clary's voice asked and when I turned around, she stood beside me
- Honestly? I have no idea. She just won't leave me alone, I answered
- Well, I'm surprised. I didn't think that she was your type
- She's not, I said
- Whatever you say, Mags
Clary walked away and once again, I was alone. Well, not really alone. The nightclub was crowded with drunk people who danced around, screaming and grinding on each other. One of the negative things about being a bartender, is that I actually have to talk to people. Fine, it's not the most advanced conversation, but it's still a conversation. 3 hours later I was finally done. The clock was almost 2am and I don't think I ever missed my bed this much before. I grabbed my jacket and started walking back to Alexander's dorm. It was dark and if I'm going to be honest, I was a little bit scared to walk back home alone, but I didn't really have any other option. 30 long minutes later, I was back in the dorm and ready to fall face first on my bed. I tried to be as quiet as possible when I walked across the living room floor to my room, but I realised that it really didn't matter since I found Alexander siting awake in front of the TV.
- Haven't you moved since I left? I asked and laughed
- Dammit Magnus. You scared me to death, he answered and placed one of his and over his heart
- I'm sorry, Alec
- It's fine and no, I haven't moved since you left. I've been watching this amazing show on Netflix and I guess that I lost track of time, he answered
- Sounds legit
- What about you? How was work? Alexander asked
- Handful, I answered and sat down beside him on the couch. This time a lot closer than earlier this morning
- What happened?
- This girl, Camille, she came up and talked to me for about 10 minutes. Trust me, she's the worst, I answered
- Let me guess, one of your one night stands? Alec said carefully
- Oh yeah, but unfortunately, she didn't really understand what a one night stands really means
- Girls, they're hopeless
- Tell me about it, I answered and laughed
He's right. Girls can be a lot of work sometimes, especially Camille. But when it comes to Alec, everything's different. He's special, I guess.
- Well, we should probably sleep, shouldn't we? At least one of us has classes tomorrow
- You're right, I answered
Alec turned off the TV and the both of us, stood up from the couch. We said our goodnights and thereafter, we took our separate ways into our rooms. I changed into my pyjamas and laid down on the bed. Jesus, I haven't been this exhausted in what feels like forever. Trust me when I'm saying this, I fell asleep in only a couple of secondsOne more update today because I think you all deserves it and I'm really excited about this book😇
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Together by faith
FanficAlexander (Alec) Lightwood is 18 years old and studies at a college in New York. After the tragic incident where he accidentally "came out" to his parents, Alec left his whole family behind and decided to start from the beginning. But what happens...