Falling Like A Fool

Excerpt

Oh, my gulay! Mare-rape ba ako? Chos! Asawa ko kaya itong kolokoy na'to! Pero galit ako sa kanya!

Pinilit kong magpumiglas sa ilalim niya pero mashado siyang mabigat para sa akin.

Six footer kaya itong lalaking ito. Isa pa, ipinatong niya ang mga tuhod niya sa mga braso ko kaya hindi na ako makagalaw.

"I won't let you go, and no man can have you!" He said and took his shirt off.

Laway... wag kang tutulo! I warned myself. Galit ka kay Matteo... diba? Paalala ko pa sa sarili ko.

"Are you crazy?" I said as I struggled under him. "I'm going to report you to my uncle who is the President of the Philippines, and my cousin who is your cousin-in-law, and my brother who happens to be the husband of a princess in Saudi Arabia!" I threatened him.

Matteo just smirked at me. "I always think ahead, my wife. You should know that by now."

"Buwiset!" Asar kong sabi.

Ginamitan na naman ako ng kayabangan niya. Hmp!

Napaisip tuloy ako. Kailangan kong umisip ng ibang paraan dahil parang walang epekto sa mokong na ito ang mga pinagsasabi ko, ah?

Change strategy!  "Y-you're hurting me..." I whimpered dahil dinaganan ni Matteo ang mga braso ko ng tuhod niya.

I saw that his face softened as I mewled, and he released my hands.  Deep inside me, na-touch ako sa ginawa niya dahil feeling ko mahal pa rin niya ako kasi concerned siya na baka nasasaktan niya ako. Pero I got surprised when he started tying my hands with the blanket on the headboard of my bed.

"T-teka! Wait! What are you doing?" panicked kong tanong. I felt scared as he did that and noticed Matteo's dark face. He was serious habang mas lalong hinigpitan ang pagkakatali ng mga kamay ko above my head. 

Pero sa totoo lang, it brought back memories of our first night together as husband and wife. Nabalutan ako ng saglit na pagkalungkot dahil naalala ko yung panahon na okay pa kami ni Matteo. Naalala ko yung panahon na nagpapaloko pa ako sa kanya.

Naiiyak na naman ako. Ayoko na makaramdam na mahina ako. Ayoko na masaktan, umiyak, matulala, at lalong magpakabaliw at umasa na matinong tao si Matteo.

"What are you going to do?" tanong ko na nagpapanic.  

Muli akong nagpumiglas.  "This is rape!" Sigaw ko. "And according to the anti-rape law of 1997, this is a crime against a person under the revised penal code!"

"I'm not raping you. I'm just making love with my wife, and it also states in your constitution that if the legal husband who is the offender is forgiven by his wife, the criminal action or penalty is extinguished. And as to date, our marriage is not void ab initio... whatever that means..."

"H-how did you know that?" I asked bewildered as I watched him easily peel off my undergarments under my skirt, and touched my below.  Napakagat labi ako as he tried to insert his finger inside.

"I read that in one of your books while I was waiting for you because I was planning this..." he said and slid inside me. 

"Stop..." I moaned as he raised my hips to meet his as he entered deeper.

"I missed you so much, Tatania..." he whispered, as he rested his body on mine when his length was fully inside, throbbing, and sending a tingling sensation through out my already moistened flesh.

Nalalasing na ako sa pleasure na nadama at napatungo ako as I arched my back against the bed, unintentionally enticing Matteo more.  Pero nagulat na lang ako nang hawakan niya ako batok to make her face him, as he roughly kissed me while he thrusted.

"And you're mine. Only mine." He menacingly said.

I was speechless. All I could do the feel his throbbing inside me, and feel pleasure of his conquering me. It was intoxicating and making all my bones weak. It was like melting in gratification as I felt my flesh enveloping his throbbing length.

"You're still tight my love, "he whispered as he pushed harder and groaned at the satisfaction it was giving him as he heavily kneaded my breasts.  

I felt a pang of pain as he cupped and kneaded my breasts, but it stimulated me more as I reached out for him and slightly bit his shoulder. 

I wrapped my legs around his waist as he was moving and he reached for the headboard to thrust harder and deeper into me.

Then he gripped my  waist towards him and started banging his length hard into my flesh. 

All I could do was hold on tight on the blanket tied on to my hands for support, and tried not to scream as I felt my flesh contracting faster at his every thrust, and while I could hear the squeaking sound of the bed as it moved with his weight.

We continued to rhythmatically and harshly moved against each other as if we have been longing for this all through out the time we were not together.

I missed him touching me like this. I missed his rough kisses on me like he was devouring every inch of me.. .as if he wanted meso badly.  

 He was not raping me. He was not having sex with me. We were making love... at sa puntong iyon ng realisasyon ko, hindi ko na napigilan tumulo ang luha ko at maging emosyonal.

As he thrusted faster, I felt that I was almost near.  "I'm coming!" I panted and screamed. "Please..." I pleaded but don't know what for.

Somehow he understood what I needed which I myself didn't know what.

He licked the tips of my bossom and rubbed his thumb on it as he moved faster.  

I couldnt help but moan as I felt the fluid flowing out of me, and I know he felt it too as he groaned, and he released his seed inside too. Hinihintay pala niya akong ma-reach ang peak ko.

He growled in exhaustion and rested on top of me. Pero kahit pareho kaming napagod at nasa ganito kaming posisyon, naisip ko pa rin ang kahihiyan ko. Nagfa-file nga ako ng divorce sa kanya, pero heto ako, and just made love with him. Tama ba'to?

Hindi ko 'to keri. I have to go out. I have to run away from him, para makapag-isip. Heto na naman kasi ako. Para akong tanga na mahawakan lang ni Matteo, bumibigay na! Huhu!

Lumaban naman ako, eh... kahit konti, diba?

Kahit hinihingal ako, ay muli akong nagsalita. "Pls let me go." I whispered.

"No. I wont let you go." Mariin niyang sabi.

 "Ayoko na sa'yo..."  mahina kong sabi sa Tagalog.

I must admit I couldnt say that in English. A part of me didnt want to hurt his feelings. Or perhaps... a part of me still didn't want to finalize it or else, tuluyan na siyang mawawala sa akin. Naguguluhan ako. Nalilito na ako sa nararamdaman ko. Nung magkahiwalay kami ni Matteo, I was already sure of my decision. Pero ngayon, heto ako, nayayanig ang mundo dahil kay Matteo.

"Whether you like it or not,  the divorce is cancelled."

"You can't do this!" Pagkontra ko.

"Watch me."