Reflection

Chapter One

The way his soft gentle fingers glided across my body made my heart flutter at a pace I didn't know it could. He smoothly glided his body into mine, and I moaned openly. He drastically flipped me over and kissed up my chest to my neck. Gradually working his way up to my lips, where our tongues touched gracefully. He lay there beside me, panting of exhaustion; but still smiling out of pleasure. I turned over and kissed him on the cheek, then rested my head on his stomach; listening to his heart beat and feeling each breathe he took. I closed my eyes...

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THREE WEEKS LATER

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I hadn't called, I hadn't texted; even though my mailbox was full and there were hundreds of voicemails on my phone. All from him.
We had been best friends ever since grade two, and suddenly I realized it was all changing. We were changing, and sometimes I didn't like it very much. Maybe it would ruin our friendship, and maybe it would blossom into something better. Something more powerful. Something called love.
I sat on my furry white chair, listening to the cars drive by and the people walking past. All I could think about was him...Augustus Jacobs. Aka Aj. I had probably thought of a thousand things to say, and a million things to do about the longing for his touch one more time; but I had to fight it.
All my life I'd been the nice guy, the good guy, the guy who had the perfect family and the perfect life. Wasn't that worth something?
I thought of what my father would think of me if he knew what I'd done.
I thought of how my mother would look at me differently.
I thought of how I would see myself.
I thought of how Aj would see me. If he'd even want me.
I had decided what to do, and I didn't care what people would think or what they would say; I loved Augustus Jacobs and nobody could change that, not even my self conscious.