Conor Maynard imagines

Self harm, panic attack

Thanks AnotherConorMayniac for the idea
Your POV
Conor was filming on a complement track instead of a diss track with Caspar witch was on the other side of London you had no plans everyone was busy you happened to have a blog so you did a blogpost and normally when you finished one you tweet about it

YourUsername: hay guys! Just put a blog post out! Been bored today looking through some of your tweets today I guess x

As you finished your tweet you looked at the time and it was 3:00 pm Caspar and Conor should be coming back soon Caspar said he stay a bit at Conor's and yours til he goes back to his and Josh's and his apartment and you sat on your MacBook reading tweets there was loads of nice ones...then there's people that hate and also take it a bit to far

Blog post! That's all you tweet about or you tweet about @conormaynard seriously Conor the one that made you have these followers

She trying to be zoella or Tanya burr! Get your own life!

Kill yourself you nasty bitch

!K I L L Y O U R S E L F!

No one likes you but Conor...even that's debatable so just go die

PLEASE KILL YOURSELF ITS DOING US A FAVOUR! Little slutty bitch!

The words kept going over your head you shut the laptop a glared at the wall thinking why do they all the people want you killed? You felt anxious and anxious you ran to the bathroom upstairs and grabbed the razed and started to cut

Conor POV
I was walking with Caspar the takes was amazing now to see my girl y/n all the boys was jealous of her as I reached the apartment door I turned the key

"Honey I'm home!" I joked Caspar laughed it was dead silence me and Caspar looked at each other I closed the door

"Babe!" I shouted and I could hear tears I panicked why is she crying? I saw her laptop I opened it quickly and I got the notification half an hour ago about her blog post

"Eh look at the comments" Caspar suggested I heard tears I wanted to just see her but I need to know why she crying

Fat pig! Kill yourself!

Your using him for his wealth and his dick! You don't love him for who he is so kill yourself

EVERYONE TELLING YOU TO KILL YOURSELF SO DO IT BITCH!!!!!

"Holy shit..." I mumbled that's why every comment is telling her to kill herself I was going to run upstairs until I remembered Caspar was here I turned

"Mate not being rude but could you like go and I'll catch up with you tomorrow...I'm sorry it's just-" Caspar cut me off my rant

"Conor buddy I know it isn't my place to be around if she like this so it's fine I'll see you tomorrow buddy!" He says I thanked him and he yelled bye out the door and I ran upstairs and headed tears coming from the bathroom I opened it to see her with a razor...cutting herself shit...she had panic attacks but not this

"Y/n! Stop! please!" I say grabbing the razor off her blood was on the floor I wiped it off her arm quickly her screaming in pain and I picked her up and took her in our bedroom she curled up in a ball and hid her face in my pink sugglife hoddie and that day I was wearing glasses for fun really I took them off and set them on the side and I could hear the tears I stroked her hair

"I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE!" She screamed

"Shhhhh just let it out but your not going anywhere and nether am I" I said she cried and cried and I hugged her tightly she like a a little baby you always want to look after her I could hear her calming down I stoked her hair and the tears and stopped it was just heavily breathing she looked up at me

"Conor?" She said confused

"Yeah it's only me" I chuckled I stroked her face and she looked at her arms

"You'll never try that again when I'm not around or please just never do it again!" I sighed

Your POV
As I calmed down I looked to see mascara marks and wet tees on his hoodie he looked down and looked at me me

"Sorry.." you said awkwardly

"It's fine but stay there" he says getting up of the bed you sat there and he came back with a wet flannel and he took his hoodie off and put it on the ground and put on his Nike hoodie and came back and sat on the bed

he grabbed your hand and and started to wipe of so residue blood and the pain killed your inside he hit a part that was so
Painful you let out a squeal he looked at you and carried on gently and then he put the flannel down and looked at you a small tear rolled half way down your cheek until Conor wiped it away

"When I saw you I shitted myself..." he says you had complete guilt you moved off the bed and Conor followed and you tried to walk out but he stoped you and  your tilted head up so your eyes connected with him

"But it's okay...." he whispers you weakly smile he stroked your cheek and placed a small peck on your lips you looked at your arms you felt so bad of what you had done Conor moved and kissed them the pain was hurtful made you it made you cry

"Awh..." he says and hugs you tightly and rocks you side to side he let go and looked at you and wiped your tears away

"Your cute when you cry" he says you smiled

You gave him a soft and trendy kiss as a thank you.....

Hay hope you like that if you did vote and comment and I'll see you soon!-Evie xox