A week ago , my best friend went out of the Hospital , what does she had?
She tried to kill herself , now she is really the same , but she said that some memories were deleted , so I thought in some point I will desapear , when she went out , I really was happy because she is the best I got , and if she is gone I really don't have anyone else , someones says that they love me or something like that but the true is that I'm not really feeling it , so I talk to her , she wasn't the same ..
She changed in some form because when I Chat with her where hours and hours of chatting and when she came back the Chat feels empty like I really didn't talk to her , so I start with some topics very easy , "How was your day"
Something like that I really wanted that she came back like it was....
The true is , that when she came back my memories are back , yes ,mine ,
It will sound like I'm the fucking same boy of every suicide story , I got bullyied , even now , a year ago my Partners of class they weren't really close to me .... So , they didn't talk to me , I was the weird worm there , this year I tried my best to change that , yeah, this year is worst , in my life started with love , I'm gay by the way , yes you will say "OMG he is gay and he is suicidal" yes I am and if you really known about how many people gay dies , for this Events , you will really feel bad , I'm not trying to change anything I'm the way I am an you are the way you are , so if you are a bully , Go ahead , and if you are a bullyied ... Well I really don't know what to say, I'm not the best person in this world so ...
I tried my best to get better after my first attempt of suicide , yes I already tried and it finish in failure , I'm not glad but is ok...
Now I go with some friends to the cinema , and I really had some great time , i the movie was a shit , but meh , no one cares about it so , I had a Wonderful day blah blah , Shan I came back to my house , Anna Talked to me , so I was like "Oh this is good"
But it wasn't , so she told me that she was a whore ¿Why? Because she liked two persons , I'm like "Do you really need to choose ?"
In the first time I said like "WTF YOU DONT HAVE TO LEAVE YOUR BOYFRIEND!"
Because he waited her until she got out and it really loves her , and I was saying like "OWW I need one of those " but the true is that you don't need a person , you need to found yourself why? Because is more important you than me , I'm shit im Trash, blah blah
Then I got to bed and that's my day of today
PD : today I didn't got so much bullyied in the school .
PD2: I got a good day , but also bad.
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Teen FictionIt's me , my real me , im depressive I'm not the Sunshine everyone things that I am , I'm not.... and here is were I can really Drop everything so , if anyone Read this ... you are going to be bored ... so Skip to the next book....
