All of this Anger

The anger

I laugh at the fact that I choose to fake my life
There's been no one yet that could take out this knife
I feel it's been too deeply lodged so now it's permanent
There's very few things I can call a deterrent
I'm observant
I'm a philosopher
Or at least that's what I told her
Why cant my fucking life just finally go at ease
Like the fuck do you think I do? Do I always have to say please?
Y'all don't understand how harsh a bitch can be
Why is it so fucking hard to see
You think I'm nice to just fuck you good?
Hell naw you must be misunderstood
Why the fuck do you think I tried to be near you?
Especially when you were the one that ask me to
Like you prick ass bitch take shit for granted
You act as if I'm a tree just planted
Neglect me cause I don't fucking care
You just make me wanna pull my fucking hair
With all the doubts in my world you came here with simple smiles
The smiles that made me question my Styles
The heart warming teeth that made me melt
It was lowkey the best I've ever felt
But naw you just had to pull some dumb shit
Now I hope you fall in a fucking pit
I started to like you but that didn't matter
Cause my life was always going to shatter
Like what the fuck do you mean I'm nice?
I always knew nice guys were just there for advice
My life is just here for people to fucking abuse
Like I've always been that tissue people use
Why can't this life already take its turn
I just don't want to see myself burn
It's already frustrating to be me
My anger is always silent
And I never want people to know
I also never show myself to be violent
But at this point my life's about getting ready to blow.