Ican'texpresslikeotherssoIwriteit

∆Depression and Suicide Prevention∆

Wow way to start dark! I kinda hope my friends read at least this chapter out of anything I write. This is the speech I wanted to give you guys for such a long time but never had the strength to say.

If you don't know me irl or if I never mentioned, a lot of people in my mom and biological dads side have mental illnesses, social anxiety, anxiety, and depression. Fortunately I do not have depression, however I know from family members and friends what it is like and what it is like to try and help people with depression.

Unfortunately, ((and weirdly enough)) all my friends have depression. Its scary to think about, and its hard deal with on both sides. I can't imagine life without any of them.

What I wanted to say for so long to all the people I care about that are depressed is that I care and love you guys so much. It pains me to see you hurting, and I want you to know that I'm here for you. I know I don't say it a lot like I ((and more people)) should, but imagine how awkward it would be if I sat at our lunch table of friends and said "I value-all-of-your-human-existances-please-don't-leave-me." Thats one way to make a lunchroom pin-dropping quiet. I'm not the only one that cares about you either, your friends and lovers and family care about you too! ((Some may have a weird way of showing they care))

In your darkest days please think of a time I said a stupid joke, because making jokes is my way of saying "Love you."

As an artist, I literally have trained my brain to see the beauty in everyone. ((Even people who have called me disgusting))  I know not everyones brains are like that, but just imagine all of the puddles you can jump in after the storm.  

Please know that you don't have to feel alone, I'm here. I'll always give you chances for me to help you. The key is finding the strength in yourself to help yourself. It may take time and support for you to get and feel better, but you can do it. Whether it takes a long time or short while you CAN do it. I believe in you!