True Feelings

true thoughts

Why why keep going. Just fuck it all. Im done. I just want to die.  I can dont see they joy in life. I don't feel loved. Yes i know my family loves me. But love from anther. Im so sad and depressed. I just want someone that can take that all away. Someone they can make my demons stay away. Someone that can save me from the hell i call my mind. The constant reminder that im alone. I dont want to be here. Just kill me all ready. I would a lot happier if i was just dead. Why do i keep going. Why do i stay in this hell we call life. We do i keep walking,eating,hopeing,breathing. I dont know. Dont ask me but something is keeping me alive and to you thank you. Im not dead yet and im still clean. Havent done any self harm and i dont think i ever will as long as what ever is out there keeping me alive. Ill keep going. Ill keep wearing my mask. Ill keep to my self. Ill try to smile and be happy but i dont know if it will ever be able to have true happiness again but im pretty sure. Ill mange some how but at times my heart will just scream out for death. For the sweet embrace of death. For all the feelings to go away. To finally stop being in so much pain. To just feel numb. To feel nothing but pure bliss and peace from all the hell i have suffered threw. So please kill me but dont kill me. I don't know. My heart say kill me but my brain says keep going. The will be someone be waiting for you at the end of the path. Just surive all the obstacles and pain u will go threw to get to the end because at the end it will be all worth it because you will find love agian and feel true happiness and bliss when u reach the end of the path but for now. Keep rolling threw the pain and tragedies so you will make it to the end and someone may see your pain and come to help you to the end. For now far well till we met agian~ suicidal, depression, sadness,pain and heart