Past becoming the future your probably thinking what is that suppose to mean well it means exactly what it sounds like. I grew up not knowing what love and affection was due to the fact that my mom did not know what it was. She did not know how to show us the love and affection that every other child got. The stuff we saw the stuff that she let us see she told us that it would prepare us for the future. Growing up you do not understand much until you reach a certain age. So many secrets hidden from me to protect me from getting hurt and in the end I was hurt. Still till this day I struggle to love. Not being able to love as hard as everyone else sucks but their is also a positive side too it. In the end I do not end up hurt as the people who love hard. The only negative thing about not being able to love as hard as everyone else is that if someone falls for me their only being lead on. What I mean by lead on is me trying to keep it going trying so hard to fall for them like they did for me.
