why?

prologue

song recommendation: a drop in the ocean by ron pope

i wiped my eyes feeling wetness, suddenly realizing i was seeing blurs outlining everything. i desperately tried to see clearly, i tried to think clearly, but the sounds from my phone indicating a new message was replaying in my ears as the screen was filling up more and more of unread texts.

as i finally unlocked the device, i regretted doing so immediately. i lied the phone down on the counter as i sunk slowly onto the floor, tears clouding my vision once more. the room was racked with sobs, continuing even when i crawled over to the toilet and threw up all i had in me, which was not very much.

one more ding occurred as i was spitting out the last of it, and i grabbed the cell. i didnt even have to look to know what the message would read, but i glanced at the lit screen to see the words i had been constantly dreading for weeks,

"i just need a break, okay?"

and with that, i started to slip under darkness as the phone plummeted to the ground, shattering in multiple pieces... and along with that,

my heart.

long time, no see guys. im sorry i was inactive over the last few months, i was going through a really rough time. but this story is based on that time, so we'll see how this goes... i'll try to update at least twice a week, but school is starting in a few weeks, so lets just pray i can keep up with everything.

for most chapters, there will be a song recommended to listen to as you read it, its your choice whether or not you want to hear it. the names in this story have been changed for privacy, and i've added extra details such as the grade the characters are in. also, "why" includes girlxgirl, so if you have any problems with that, 1. what is wrong with you and 2. do not negatively comment on it, for it may impact other readers (and myself) in a bad way.

IMPORTANT, WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS TRIGGERING CONTENT SUCH AS SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, SO PLEASE BE CAREFUL. STAY ALIVE <3