As formal as any plain old dress I sit smiling,
But only if my true feelings showed through,
Knowing what bestows upon my friend this lovely day
Will never truly be mine.
Dear friend, if you only knew,
The pain inside me is so great
Why should you be the one and not me?
This is a true curse
I say worse than any that I have seen,
But true to my friendship I'll stay
And never a word from my lips will stray,
The pain that seeks to engulf me
My suffering for your glory
This is by far the most dreadful position,
If you only knew.
~RMM '93
