Amnesia (A Jaegan Fan Fic)

The Start & The End

*Flash Back, Raegan's POV*

I was on the phone with Justin as we laughed together, we made jokes as we always did and I just felt so happy talking to him.

A few hours later, I got a notification saying that he was going Live on younow and so I decided to join. The second I did, the comments flooded with "RAEGANS HERE!" "Omg Justin you are so close to your goal" "#JAEGAN" and things like that.

I started to giggle as I sat there and then realized what they were talking about. Apparently, Justin had set a goal for how many likes the broadcast needed to get so that he would ask me out. I was so happy.

After a while he face timed me and then started saying random things that came to his head cause he couldn't think of how to actually ask me. Soon after though, I said to him "I would love to be your boyfriend" followed by him saying "YES! See I told you guys this would work"

He was all blushy and so was I, he was so cute. I knew from that day forward, that I had completely fallen for a 5'3, brunette with hazel green eyes that was short yet muscular and all around perfect. I had fallen for Justin Blake.

*End of flash back. Still raegan's pov*

Ever since Justin and I broke up.. it's been really hard to be as happy as I used to be. I honestly used to be as happy as could be In only a few seconds of talking to him, but now I fake it a lot.

My supporters have all noticed it too, but usually they either choose to not say anything or just say it as little as they can cause they know I'm hurting.

I thought that the long distance was too hard seeing as I had trust issues and it was hard to watch him be with other people.. but at the end of the day I was completely wrong. I could trust him and I completely want him back.

Today is gonna be the day that I am going to be hanging out with him for the first time publicly since we've broken up. I'm honestly super excited to see him but I know this is gonna be really hard. I honestly just want the small boy to be back in my arms again... but he can't know that.

As I stood up and stretched I looked over to my alarm clock and saw that in three hours, Justin would be here. I took a quick shower and then decided to get dressed.

I put on my binder, carefully, and took a deep breath. I hated binding but it's a part of being trans that I have to deal with I guess. Then I put on my outfit and did my hair.

I wanted to wear something that was casual enough to show Justin that I didn't care about looking too nice but at the same time doesn't make me look like a hot mess or that I care too much. I think I might be thinking this over a bit much but who cares? I sure don't.

I put on a black t-shirt and some jeans. As I ran my fingers through my hair I smiled. I was happy that I was going to finally see him. I knew that it wasn't going to be too awkward cause I'm not an awkward person but I know that he sometimes is. Hopefully I can change that.

I heard my door bell ring as I ran downstairs. I then stopped myself for a moment, trying to calm down. It's just Justin. I walked the rest of the way and slowly turned the door knob. The second I opened it, I saw a short brown haired boy with a black shirt and jeans on.

Justin. He had changed so much since I saw him last. He went back to the way his hair used to be when I first found him on social media but it wasn't a bunch of crazy colors, just brown. I realized that he must of done the same thing I did about my outfit. We were practically wearing the same thing.

We both hugged eachother and stayed that way for a little while. "I missed you so much." I said as he said it right after me. God I meant what I said. I had to hold back some of my emotions though, I couldn't overwhelm him with how i really felt or things would get awkward.

Justin and I went up to my room and sat down on my bed, we turned on some music and waited for some of the other friends that we had coming over.

"Hey, we should go live on younow!" I said as he immediately turned to me and agreed. "Wait. We need clickbait for the thumbnail so let's do a stage kiss!" He added as I nodded.

Most people wouldn't think too much into a stage kiss, especially from Justin cause he does them with many people. But I did. This was my ex. This was my first actual love and still was my love. But I brushed it off.

He grabbed my cheeks and leaned in slowly with his eyes closed. I closed my eyes and leaned in as well. He put his thumb over my lips and lightly pressed his lips onto it. But I suddenly felt more than just his thumb as I realized that parts of his lips touched my own.

I forgot how amazing it felt to kiss him. He then pulled away and blushed, I could tell he felt something as well. "Uh. Does it look good?" Justin asked as I nodded and started it.

People started joining and the comments immediately started flooding in saying things like "IS JAEGAN BACK?" "Omg in triggered" "aw my otp" "YOU GUYS SHOULD KISS" and things like that.

"We will start doing stuff once more people get here so that we don't need to repeat ourselves and redo stuff" I said as Justin nodded.

God I really really missed this boy.

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