Ashes to Ashes

Robbi

I finally reached the safe haven of my house. There I saw the usual setting, my mom with some man and the house it's normal filth.

“Oh sweetie! I didn't know when you were getting home" she slurred clearly drunk.

" 2:30 like normal mom" I said kicking off my shoes

" oh well Hun I ate at the bar and I didn't think..."

“It’s fine mom I just ate at school" I lied.

“Oh good!" she exhaled. She locked lips with that man once more.

“She was a good mom when she was sober” I thought to myself as I climbed the stairs to my room. “But she hadn't been sober in 4 years, since Karen left.”

 Karen was my oldest sister. She was smart and pretty and had a future, but she victimized herself. One night she and mom were arguing, well screaming actually, when she just... Left. We never saw her again. Eventually she called Megan and I had kept her phone number but I hadn't actually seen her in years and I was too scared to call. I still had Megan but she was always out with Brady, her boyfriend.

I closed the door behind me and began looking for my razor blade, yes that’s right, my razor blade. When I was finally holding the small piece of heaven in my hand I exhaled and my phone vibrated. When I looked down I saw his smiling face searching my eyes and reaching my soul. Quickly I reached for my phone.

" Hi Robby!" I smiled

" Hey Quill! How are things!"

" Pretty normal actually”.

" Oh I'm sorry sweetie!"

" Yeah mom has a new man in the house and Megan hasn’t been home for two weeks."

“I’m real sorry hun”

“I’m fine. You know I’m used to it. So tell me, how is Jesus school” referring to the school his catholic mother had sent him to to, “Pray away his Gay” if you catch my drift.

“Oh my god Quill honey there are SO, many hot guys here! I met this one in particular!" he gawked, “his name is Taylor! Oh you would love him, he is so nice and funny and smart!"

" Does he have abs?!"

“OH my god and he is so tan! He is like my big cappuccino!” he laughed. Robby had been my best friend for 11 years. We laughed for a while before he broke the happy mood with…

 ”So are you ok?" I sighed not wanting to do this with him.

" Yep" I said eyeing the razorblade I was slowly sliding my finger back and forth on.

"Quill?"

"What?! Robby I fine! Really! I haven’t gotten in any fights." I said neglecting to mention I broke Ashley's nose. “And I haven’t touched a medication bottle” Again, not mentioning I had taken Vicaden before school”

" Ok I trust you. Anyway I’m just calling to check up on you. I will call you tomorrow. Love you slut"

" Love you Douche" I smiled and hung up.

When he hung up he took the warmth with him. I didn’t want him to go. Oh well, I guess I had no other option than to just listen to my iPod…..that was in..shit!  My iPod was in my mom’s room. I ran downstairs and put my ear to the wall and hear snores so I went in. I saw my iPod on the side table next to two naked figures. I grabbed it and ran trying not to puke from the smell of the room.