Becoming a better "YOU"

The Girl Next Door.

(Marley's Thoughts)
As I sit there admiring the depths of her perfections, I question myself. How could anyone be so perfect? In fact, how could anyone NOT be?

Why would God create such a remarkable creature? I guess the real question is, why wouldn't he?
How long did it take?
What was the time limit for her beautiful skin... Her perfect eyes... Her gorgeous smile.... Her lips... Those dimples----
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Okay.. maybe I'm getting besides myself. Maybe I'm going a little insane. But I just can't take my eyes off of her. I guess that's what happens when you're in love.
I mean truly... in love
Shit, more like... DANGEROUSLY in love.
"Dangerously" 🤔... Yeah.... That's the word.
I'm in love with someone that's not even interested 🤷🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️. That's dangerous.
I think about this person 24/7, and it's like she sees right through me. That shit pisses me off every time I think about it.
I mean..what the hell do I have to do to get your attention? What do I  have to say, to make you look my way?
Just tell me.. and I'll do it. But it's never that easy. Sometimes.. you gotta work to get what you want.
But remember how I said
" dangerously in love". Yeah.. this is what makes it dangerous.-----
Wanting someone that doesn't even know you exist 🥀

*Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep*

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Marley man watch where the fuck you going!

It's crazy how your mind could wander for just 2 seconds.

Bro, if that bitch got you driving like this, you need to pull over and let me drive. Cause a nigga not about to die.

I look at my homeboy and laugh.

Man I'm good! I ain't even thinking about ole girl! *Looks at Chris* But did you see how she looked at me today? She wanted me... I just know it.

Negro please. All she did was laugh at yo knuckle head ass.

Man SHUTUP. She didn't laugh at me. She SMILED. S-M-I-L-E-D!

*BEEP BEEP*

I know yo ass better pay attention to this damn road. Before we be D-E-A-D.

I swear I hate this nigga sometimes. But I'm not gon lie, he be having me dying. Me and Chris go wayyyyy wayyyy wayyyyy back. Me and him were in foster care together. So we just tell everyone we're brother and sister. I mean, we don't look alike. But looks ain't shit. Chris is about 6'1 with hazel eyes. ( His eyes be making these bitches go crazy. ) He got 6 golds at the bottom, and tatted like a mutha fucka. Chris gets ALLLLL the babies. I'm surprised he didn't steal Niya from my ugly ass. Me on the other hand... I'm 5'10, fair-skinned, with dreads and braces. BAD COMBINATION. That's probably why she doesn't notice me.

See here I go again. I always get side tracked. And this nigga just running his mouth, I don't even know what he sayin---

And Niya didn't "smile" at yo clumsy, limp kneed ass. She LAUGHED. L-A-U-G-H-E-D. Cause yo dumb ass almost fell.. Fuck wrong with you? You can't even walk straight. Niya got you acting crazy. That's all you care about now.... yo punk ass don't even come to see me anymore. Ever since she moved into my building.."is Niya home". Bitch I don't know. Go ask NIYA. Matter fact, Yo bitch ass couldn't even ask her her name. I had to ask for you.. you see what I'm talking about? You being a pussy.

I swear he be flamin' me. But he's right. I go to his house every day just to see her. But I can't help it.,She's just so sexy to me. I want her bad. I don't even know if ole girl gay. But shit I don't care.

Look Marley man... you my bro fr fr. And you know I keep it real with you. Niya don't seem to be interested. But that's only because you don't make yourself seem interesting. She don't even seem like the type to swing your way. Ole girl ain't fuckin with no dikes----

I glare at him.. he knows how much I hate that word.

I mean Stud. *raises hands*. My fault, my fault. But fr G. Homegirl ain't budgin. If you ain't gon make no moves... You don't need to waste ya time. So either you make time and say wassup.. or just move the fuck on.

I guess ima just let her go... You right.

I'm lying like a mutha fucka. I'm not letting shit go. She's mine.

Nigga. You can't even damn think straight. You almost killed us TWICE today. Talkin bout "ima let her go". Man fuck it... Ima help you get her. We going back to my crib. And you gon SPEAK.

I look at Chris and nod my head. It's about time I grow out of my shell. I've been in it too long. Ima do it. Today's the day.

You right G.

I pull into "Quickie Mart".

Alright Marley. Ima just go in here and get some shit, and we gon head back to my crib. And yo dumb ass gon TALK to Niya. So you better sit in this damn car and practice what the fuck you gon say. Cause if you S-S-St-St-stutter, one more damn time... Ima S-S-Slap yo ass.

Chris gets out of the car and goes into the market.

Man. What the fuck am I gonna say to this girl?

I lay my head on the steering wheel.

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