One Tragic Day

it all started

Iyak ako ng iyak. Pain ! All i've felt is pain.Iniwan nya ako ng wala man lang paliwanag </3

Masakit para sakin..

He means every little thing to me. mahal na mahal ko sya :(

Pero wala ehh iniwan nya ko :(

I can't accept it na wala na kami :(

I can't accept it na hindi na nya ako mahal :(

That night iyak ako ng iyak hanggang sa nakatulog ako 

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It was a mid in December.

Everythings okay and fine. Me !?

Im livin fine, until that ONE TRAGIC DAY CHANGES MY LIFE  . 

It was an ordinary day 

18th of December to be exact. Program here Program there .

It was such a bussy day.

Pero kahit na busy ako hindi sya nawawala sa isip at puso ko.

"He is my everything."

Hindi man sya nag tetext sakin I've tried to understand him.

Until that text message from him broke my heart

Fr: .My Property <3

Tigil na po. auko ka na masaktan.

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Sa simpleng message nyang iyon. Nabasag ang puso ko :(

Akala ko ba hindi nya ako iiwan at sasaktan.

He really changed in just one snap,

He leaved me.

i miss him the old him.

The old ones who always cry when i teases him. the one who always wants my attention is on him. The one who always disturbs me when i'm reviewing.

the one who is afraid to loose me , the one who is contented enough to have me,i miss the old him the old J.P.S.M.D.

The one that i'm going to marry

the one who will made my dreams come true

but now what just happened

he broke up with me

but still i will never get tired of him

until the end

until i die

until my last breathe

i will fight for the love that i feel for him

for jpsmd

and i will never get tired of loving him

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 Carly gising na youre dreaming again!

with that voice I woke up. A dream again it's been 3months since that tragic day. Urghhhhh.. Im still searching for an answer, still waiting for him. it's been so long since the last time that i saw him. Nag babaka sakaling puntahan nya ako at mag paliwanag. hanggang ngayon hindi ko padin maisip ang dahilan ng pag iwan nya sakin. Masakit syempre yung iwan ka ng hindi mo alam yung dahilan.

1 buwan akong nag tago.Hindi pa ako handang makita sya. May PAIN padin sa puso ko.

Kelan ba ako magiging masaya!?

Kelan ko ba malalaman yung mga sagot sa mga katanungan ko!?

Ang dami kong gustong itanong sa kanya.

Gaya ng 

BAKIT NYA AKO INIWAN!?

BAKIT HINDI NYA SINABI YUNG DAHILAN!?

At.

Kung MASAYA NA BA SYA SA GINAWA NYA SAKIN?

Siguro kelangan ko na ngang mag move on. Gusto ko na ding sumaya . At kung masaya sya sa pang iiwan sakin , sige susuportahan ko sya. Yun lang naman ang gusto ko eh ang maging masaya sya kahit ang kapalit ay ang pagiging malungkot ko. Worth it naman siguro, Hindi ko sya kayang iwan kaya kahit na walang communication , gusto kong malaman nya na kahit gaano kasakitn yungginawa nya . Mahal na mahal ko sya . At handa akong bumalik kung gugustuhin nya.

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Months passed by , nag sorry sya nahirapan man ako na patawadin sya , at the end pinatawad ko din sya. Naka friendly date ko sya , siguro nga simula na ng friendship :) okay na yung ganun yung hanggang friends kami , kaso hanggang ngayon di ko padin maitanung sa kanya yung mga gusto kong itanong, siguro nga hindi pa ito yung tamang oras para malaman ko yung mga bagay bagay .. okay na yung nasaktan ako dahil sa isang tragic day tama na yun okay na ko.

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ende. hihihi so eto na done na sya :) dedicated to still J.P.S.M.D :)