Getting Over You

Shattered Hopes

I'm longing for the heart of the love I once had, knowing we shared so much together-laughter, love,  silly and stupid things that couples do, sad memories, happy ones and useless fights. I wish I could hold you close like I used to. Before, I could hug you all day whenever I wanted to. I can act silly like a little girl playing like there's no tomorrow, just having fun and letting things flow. I showed you the sides of me nobody else knew. I showered you with so much love and affection, that I guess, you never appreciated nor noticed. I gave you everything that I wanted in a relationship because I wanted to be the best for you and give you more than I can share. I gave you half of my life and the whole of my heart. You were the one thing that mattered, the one love I always cherished and held dear to my heart. You were the sunlight in the morning everytime I wake up, the moonlight every dark night that illuminates my path, you were the warm blankets that wrapped around me tight,  the soft pillows i leaned on to whenever I'm sad 😔. You were my everything and my life. I 💭 thought you felt the same way,  but I guess not. I did everything for you like you were a precious stone - shouldn't be scratched, scathed,  nor smudged. Whenever you needed me,  I would always be there kissing your feet like a marionette, always bowing to your grace. I loved you too much, I guess that was so wrong of me. I acted like a fool. Maybe that's why you left. You felt like I was always begging for your love and you no longer feel hyped and excited. You needed the chase, the feeling of excitement and risk. Maybe I wasn't enough for you. Maybe I was too kind, too forgiving, and too much in love with you. Maybe I was too boring. All these thoughts kept bugging me and all these emotions feel like they're going to explode. I don't know if I should feel anger, resentment or sadness. I was too hurt and too broken to even understand whatever it is I'm feeling. 😔

You came to me days after you broke my heart. You gave false hopes that you'd come back and mend the heart that you shattered, but you didn't. You gave false hopes of love and affection and satisfied the emptiness you felt without me, then left me begging for you to come back. What did you do? You left me crumbled and devastated.

I was a damn fool to believe you loved me true. I was such a fool.