Forgetting and Fixing the Pieces

Chapter 7

"Did you have a good hunt dear?" She says and I'm grateful she's easing into what ever she has to say. I smile and nod. "Yeah I had a deer and spent some time thinking." I say and she smirks at the humor I found when she said dear.

"Good, I'm glad." She says meaning it and I smile.  We're both quiet for a minute and I bet she doesn't know how to start just as I don't know how to either. 

"I was a little worried when you didn't come inside with the others.  I know you'd be finding your mate today." She looks at me careful eyes, waiting for me to get upset and I sigh.  Normally I would have gotten upset but after today I don't have it in me to be that person anymore.

"I'm scared." I finally admit and I slump in my seat and I let all the emotions I've been holding back out. It makes my eyes swell up with venom tears that won't fall and I think of Bella and what happened at lunch. 

"Oh, Rosalie." Esme say and her arms are around me in a split second later. I sob on her shoulder and she rubs circles on my back and whispers sweet words in my ear.

"Did they tell you what happened at lunch?" I ask pulling back from her embrace. 

"No, Alice told everyone that it was only your business to tell Carlisle and me what happened." I nod and look down at my hands. 

"I'm so ashamed of myself.  I snapped at her like she was nobody and I scared that's all that she'll see me as now." I sigh and look at her and she wipe my cheek in awe. I look down and she's holding an actual tear on her finger. I suck in a breath as I look at her finger.  She passes the tear to me and puts it on my palm.  

"Amazing.  I've never witnessed this before but Carlisle has and said it's rare and only happens when someone is in such emotional turmoil and their feeling are true." I blink and feel under my eyes to feel only dryness. 

"What should I do with it?" I question and feel silly for asking such as question. 

"It's venom dear, so don't put it on your clothes or the furniture." I nod feeling slight stupid. Of course it's venom, how can I forget. I chuckle and put my palm up towards my mouth.

"Are you feeling better dear?" I shrug my shoulders no really knowing what I am at the moment, since I'm feeling so much.

"Why don't you tell me what happen at school?" She says and we both sit back and I tell her everything right up until I got home and she listened silently and with apt thoughtful expression until I was finished.  

"Hmm." She hums and I sit back and hang my head and wait for her to gather her thoughts. I go over everything I told her again in my head torturing myself in self pity.  

"I think you're being to hard on yourself Rosalie." I look up with a look of question and disbelief.  Did she not hear a work I just said? I think to myself.

"Did you not hear anything I said?" I say as I start feeling agitated.

"Of course I did, you didn't wait for me to finish." I sigh and lean back. "Sorry." She smiles and pats my thigh.

"As I was about to say." She gives me a pointed look and smiles making me smile back. "I believe she truly meant it when said she forgave you.  If she didn't, she wouldn't have sat there and listened to you, nor agree to have lunch with you." I nod.

"What about what Jasper felt from her?" I say and that's what worries me the most.

"Let me ask you this. What do you think?" I bite my lip and look away.  

"I have an idea and it also makes me think it's the reason why she moved here." 

"Well, what's your idea." I sigh and my hands clench into fists.  

"I think there's someone else or was, I'm really not sure." I quietly says and look at Esme and she looks pensive.  

"I'd bet on the latter, if what Jasper felt is correct." 

I was afraid of her saying that.  I definitely don't want to be a rebound if she is just coming out of a relationship or something.  I nod and hug Esme.

"Thank you for listening.  Do you think you can tell Carlisle for me.  I want to be alone for the rest of the night." I say feeling emotionally tired and she gives me an understanding look.

"I will when he gets home, he called and said he's going to be at the hospital later than usual." I nod and stand up. 

"Thanks." I say and start walking towards the garage.

"Your welcome dear." She says just as I close the door. I sigh and turn the garage lights on and look at all the cars parked and I smile.  Working on the cars will be a great distraction from my thoughts.

I'm in Emmett's jeep messing with the controls, so when he turns his wipers on the horn will go off.  I'm also making it so that when he gets in the jeep and turns the jeep on the doors will lock and stay locked.  I start giggling and hear the house door open.  I speed out of the jeep and see that it's just Esme and I sigh out loud.  

Esme looks to the still open door of the jeep and at me and she shakes her head smiling. 

"I don't want to know." I smile and she smirks at me shaking her head and gets into her car. 

"Are you bringing Carlisle dinner?" 

"Not this time, I'm actually going to the grocery store." I nod and she opens the garage door and waves before pulling away.  I smile at the prospect of her buying food and actually cooking it for Bella.  With that thought I close the garage door and finish what I was doing with Emmett's jeep.