Stacy... I know this might sound extremely cheesy...but I thought it needed to be said...
So today is National Best Friends Day...
When I first found out that was today, I was kind of upset because I felt like I didn't have any friends. The only "Real Life Friends" I have go to school with me and it feels like...they forget about me or that they don't want me around. I mean...if you could see the way I am around these "friends" then I know you'd understand.
I try to get close with them and they tend to push me away... I try to make a trustful relationships with them and they don't try too... It hurts, Stacy...so bad. It hurts to feel unwanted by so many people...people you thought that you could trust...people you thought for a split second actually cared about you... Then they act like you never existed... They never reply to your texts or calls/they won't text your first... They make plans with the whole friend group and invite everyone but you... And worst of all...they call you their best friend, then leave you for another best friend... Leave you to wonder what you did wrong...Leaving you to wonder if it really was all your fault...because it keeps happening again...and again...and again... Until I realize that's it me...not the people I make friends with...I'm the one that no one wants to be around...
But Stacy...
You're not like these other "friends".
I've never felt unsure about my friendship with you. I've never had to worry about loosing you as a friend. Do you realize how happy that makes me? You feel like a best friend to me. You love to joke and goof around with me, call me silly, but cute, pet names and nicknames. You make it easy for me to open up and talk to you about anything. I love that we can be immature and ridiculous together, but also act like adults when we need to. I know we've never met in person...but that doesn't mean I can't see your sparkling personality through our messages. I can tell that you're a really sweet girl. Your so incredibly friendly and when we first met...I finally felt like I wasn't alone anymore...and for the weeks and months that followed...all I thought about was you. The second I woke up each morning, I'd get online just so that I could talk with you. You made me so happy and when we lost touch...I felt alone again. I'll admit, I had a really rough school year without you. High school is such a pain in the ass. It's hard to to fit in. I love that I don't have to worry about fitting in to be your friend.
Stacy...I promise one day that we will meet... As you know, we can't see each other now for safety reasons...but that doesn't mean we can't talk and get to know each other more.
I really love you as my best friend...I hope this bond that we have will last forever and become even stronger. Your an extraordinary person, Stacy, don't EVER doubt that. You're my sweet little Potato -3<
~Love, Nugget <3
