Captivated

-One-

-Lauren POV-

I still remember the person I was before I met her. A cold person, centered merely on my studies and the work of my dreams. I worked every minute for them, while my friends had hundreds of relationships with people, I was looking to focus on my future or maybe to evade what was non-existent for me. No. It was not because of my physique. I simply could not be with somebody without having feelings for them. I had to feel something.
If they asked me which word would define me, I would say: Passion.
I need to lovely  every single thing I do, put all my efforts, my desire, my emotions. I can not help doing something without putting in all that.
Some people call me "intense" or "weird". I don't know.
I simply know, that to be next to a person, I must feel that my stomach explodes through the thousands of butterflies, to feel their skin with mine, to look it in their eyes, to see it them smile. I have to feel. I have to feel how my skin bristles just by seeing them a couple of feet away. I must feel that I want to be with them all their life.

I searched for that feeling for a long time, but I could not find it.
Until I met her.
Until I looked into those brown eyes, until I saw her smile.
I knew it was the moment I had waited for so long.
Because:
Because the thousands or millions of butterflies exploded in my stomach, when I first intertwined her hand with mine.
Maybe it can be a normal gesture between couples, but you have no clue what It meant to me.
And when I felt her lips on mine, I was sure that I had finally found my person, my soulmate, my beautiful love, the love of my life.
Camila came to lighten my world, she completely changed it.
She came to breathe life into me.
That desire to fix the world returned, those impossible dreams, now became more possible than ever.
They will tell me that it's crazy to say all this to my 20 years, but now I can answer them, those who do not know what love is.
They do not know what it is to wake up every day with a smile, so your life is full of shit, you know at the end of the day, those eyes, will make everything alright.
They will make you feel infinite.

I spent all my youth at her side, we finished university, we had hard times, like any couple, we faced the world with a relationship that is still abnormal for some.
We face what they say, looks, murmurs as we went hand in hand like any other couple.
When I realized what it was, I didn't think I could face that world, even if I was cold, inside I was weak, just like any human being. It was difficult, but I knew I had to accept myself, I knew there was no turning back, that was what it was. But I also knew that to leave, that to face that world of prejudices, I had to be with the right person and thank God, I found her.
I know that I am fortunate to have her by my side, I am fortunate to know that her smile, is the reason for mine.
So here it goes..

A/N
Hellooooo my loves, yo this is my first fanfic I tried my hardest with the opening chapter and would really appreciate if you said if you like the writing style and all that shit. I'm planning to tell the story mostly from Lauren's point of view of the relationship. So how yo feel so far? The next chapter will obviously start off with how they met and all that shit 🤗❤️❤️