‘Cause these words are knives and often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth be told, I never was yours
The fear, the fear of falling apart - This Is Gospel, Panic! At The Disco.
You don't often hear of someone giving up on everything at such a young age, but it happens... A lot.
I suffer from sever anxiety, separation anxiety, depression, cutting, and suicidal thoughts.. I get walked all over, I am nothing but a pawn in this game called life, and I want it to end.. I want to be the person that doesn't suffer with all this bullshit.. I want to be myself again.. I want to be happy again, but... I can't.. I'm done trying to be this perfect image of someone you want me to be. I can't bring myself do stand up for myself without the fear of being beaten down... Words hurt... And sometimes, they kill.. I've wanted to die since I was in 8th grade.. I've been cutting since 6th.. I had been clean from cutting for 3 and a half years before I broke.. and now it's a constant thought... I've tried to kill myself many times.. and yet... no one has noticed.. I'm dying inside and no one seems to notice... or care for that matter.. I'm Just Done...
