Hey anyone who is reading this. As you may already know by the title of this story I have depression. I thought it went away, but no it was just hiding in the shadows. I asked why it came back and it said "Did you think I was just gonna let you be happy? You know thats not who I am." Then I said "Right, I forgot, I'm not allowed to be happy unless you say so." After that short little conversation with my own head... I couldnt stop them, the tears started flowing. Why? Why am i not allowed to be happy? I asked myself over and over. I could never get the answer I guess my depression decided that without caring what I think and ignoring when I'd ask that question.
Depression never cared about my feelings, depression has the power to make me not feel feelings at all. I didn't know I still had it, i was pretty sure I was happy but it was just waiting for the right time to creep up on me. It did, and then I started back at the beginning. Depression doesn't let me forget, no matter how hard I try, depression just says "Forgetting something? I dont think so. Remember..." And suddenly its back on my head. All the pain I've caused. I guess its my own fault for thinking I could make someone happy.
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Depression: It Speaks to Me
Kurgu DışıIts just me, i have problems and I guess I'll just tell all about it, even if no one cares. Maybe someone will read my trash for once. Here goes nothing I guess.
