I walked into my bathroom that connects to mine and my boyfriends bedroom. I turn on the hot water in the tub and plug it. I take out two bottles of ADHD pills that I'm supposed to take daily. I take a drink of my monster and uncap the bottles of pills. I dump a handful into my mouth and swallow hard. I do this three more times till I feel I've taken a sufficient amount. I stop the water and step in. Still fully clothed in my light blue sundress. It's my favorite outfit. My sister gave it to me. The water is boiling hot. But I've given up on trying to hate pain. I fully submerge my body in the water. Feeling the pills I've taken kick in I turn on my favorite song 2!3! By BTS. My boyfriends band. I start to doze off as I hear my boyfriend knock on the door. I'm too weak to do or say anything.
"Bora? Are you in there? I heard the water running." He opens the door and I hear a gasp. My eyes are shut and I can't open them. My hand twitches.
"Thank god I'm not too late!" I hear squeaking and cold splashing on my face. Fingers down my throat. Throwing up. Repeating this.
-time lapse-
-later that day-
I roll over to my side. I wince at pain.
"Are you up?" I open my eyes as much as I can. I see my boyfriend. Yoongi. He's been crying.
"You scared me shitless. My manager told me to keep you here to keep away from scandals."
"Thank you." I say horsely
He gets up from the chair by the bed and kneels in front of me
"Please. Don't take your life. I couldn't live without you. You're my world. I need you here with me. Not in some dirty casket with your beautiful self rotting away."
"I thought you were done with me. You were so upset. J-Hope wouldn't even talk to me. I cried and thought about it. I'm sorry baby" he started crying again. He kisses my forehead and walks around the bed and lays down behind me wrapping his arm around me.
"Sleep more. You almost died. I need you to be okay" I tried to respond but the sound of his voice and his breathing relaxes me and puts me to sleep.
