Walking In The Wind

goodbye -Ashley's p.o.v-

I put my phone down and walk up the stairs to Louis's room. He was sitting on the edge of the bed with his back towards me. "Hey I got something i need to talk to you about" I say walking towards him. I noticed he had his earphones in so i climbed over the bed and draped my arms around his shoulder. He pulled his right ear bud out. "May i help you miss 'can't leave me alone." He laughs as i take my hands off his shoulders. I lean back on the bed. He turns to face me with a confused look. "I need to talk to you Louis. This is important." I say looking at him. "Ok go ahead love." He says looking back at me. "I'm getting back together with Zayn. Please don't blow- What the hell are you thinking Ashley." He calmly stated. "He physically hurt you and put you in tears. How can you go back to someone like that?"

He stood up and began walking around the room to keep from blowing up on me. I mean i know where he is coming from, but if he could only understand that i am the one who blew it out of proportion. "Louis it's not like that. I blew up on him, but i shouldn't have. I asked him to and he simply obeyed me. He was willing to put me through the pain to show me. Show you what?" Louis exclaimed sitting down on the bed next to me. "I can't talk about it with you. I promised myself that i would never speak of it again." He looked at me with a kind of scary look in his eyes. Almost like he was going to get it out of me one way or another. "Baby girl, please just explain to me what happened. I want to understand why you would ever go back to someone who fucking hit you." He had a tear making it's way down his cheek. I wipe it off. "He was never going to hit me. In all fairness i don't have a bruise or anything. He spanked me. I asked him to show me what he was capable of, not knowing how bad it'd hurt. I ran first instead of learning how to walk." I look at him. My phone lights up

Zayn: Hey i am on my way to get you. I'll be there in about an hour. Don't leave Louis's and be ready.

me: i won't. can i tell Louis?

Zayn: No. No one but you will know. Ever. You are not allowed to tell your brother or anyone. Do you understand me.

me: Yes. But what if it slips out.

Zayn: Don't let it. Here read this.
http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/love-sex/bdsm-beginners-workshop-sex-class-bondage-dominance-sado-masochism-master-dominic-a7656896.html

me: Ok i will later.

Zayn: Do it now.

me: ok i will.

I tap on the link and read it. Louis sits there in a confused daze for about 3 minutes before he finally asked what i was reading. I close the tab. "Nothing. Just something Zayn wanted me to read." I make my way off the bed. "Zayn will be here in an hour and I have to be ready. Where is my suitcase?" I ask standing in his doorway. "Why do you have to be ready? He can wait." Louis smirks. "I'd rather not make him wait. Otherwise..." i trail off. "Ashley what is it? Will he hurt you if you make him wait?" His voice was full of worry. "No. He won't hurt me. It's just better if i not make him wait." I say as i go into my room and grab some clothes. "Ashley wait." I hear Louis yell from across the hall. "Let me go with you. I will make sure he won't hurt you again." I stand in my doorway and look at him. "He won't hurt me. Zayn loves me. And i love him. His eyes were full of hurt when he came after me to try and tell me he was sorry. He even said he didn't want to put me through the pain, but i told him to. I insisted he do it. I told him to hurt me." I walk down the stairs. I hear Louis follow close behind me. "I put your suitcase in the front room on the teal chair in the far left corner. Ok thanks Boo bear." I walk into the living room and set the clothes down on the table. I grab my suitcase and open it. I put the rest of the clothes in and then close it. I pick it up and set it by the door. My phone rings.

Zayn: i am almost there, be ready.

me: ok i will. ill be waiting. I read the article by the way

Zayn: what do you think?

me: Is this really what you're into?

Zayn: Yes. I have been this way for about four years now.

me: who introduced you?

Zayn: My ex girlfriend Anna Edwards. She was the Dominant and i was her submissive. I'll explain more when when you get in the car.

me: Ok just message me when you get here and i will head out.

I turn my phone off and sit on my suitcase. Louis kneels down beside me and gently rubs my shoulder. "Are you alright Ash? You don't seem to be happy." I look up at him. "I am happy..it's just, i don't know how to explain it without Zayn getting upset at me." I shake my head. "Love, who cares if Zayn gets upset. If you need to tell me something then just fucking tell me. As long as you are with me he can not hurt you." He says standing up. I grab his hand and he pulls me up and into his arms. I inhale deeply. I am going to miss Louis. If only i could tell him. My phone dings and i knew exactly who it was and what it said. I stay in Louis's embrace. I begin crying. "Love what's wrong? Why are you crying?" His heart beat was so soothing. I reluctantly break free from his embrace and grab my suitcase. I wipe the tears away that stained my cheeks and opened the door. "I love you Louis. You will always be my Boo bear." I walk down the sidewalk. "Ashley! Wait! Don't Go! Come Back Love!"