Jason McCann
I got up from my bed and walked toward the bathroom. I grabbed my toothbrush and put the blue toothpaste on top of it before started to brush my teeth. I had been in this state for months now. I was a mess. All I do after I wake up are brush my teeth, wash my face (sometimes I take a shower), eat, sit on the couch doing nothing (sometimes I even cried when I remembered her), then go back to sleep. Losing Emma was the worst experience ever. Never in million years I thought I might lost someone who was so important to me.
I spilled out the mint flavour paste and rinsed my mouth before splashed water on my face. I took the nearest towel and wiped my face before I examined myself on the mirror which I hadn't done in months. I didn't even know who the person was anymore. I looked different. I hadn't shaved in months which made me looked like a creepy man, I had dark circles around my eyes, and my hair was a mess. I never usually looked like this, even though I was a criminal, I cared about my look.
I shrugged it off and walked over to the living room. And after months I was staying here, this was probably the first time I turned the old dusty TV on. Now I knew why I never wanted to turn it on, it had nothing interesting to watch. I was about to turn the TV off when suddenly a news caught my attention.
"The famous criminal Jason McCann was reported missing months ago. He hasn't been reported for doing a crime for these past few months neither did his gang. No one knows where he is. Rumours said that he might be dead or-"
I cut the reporter off by turned my TV off. Dead? Yeah, I may looked like a dead person for these past few months, but I wasn't dead. I walked back to the bathroom and looked at reflection on the mirror. I splashed water on my face once again before looked up. I knew Emma's death affected to me, but I couldn't kept doing this. I couldn't let other gang took my place, my first place as the biggest gang. I had to do something. I couldn't be like this for the rest of my life. Emma might wanted me to move on.
I grabbed a clean towel and a pair of clothes from my wardrobe before headed back to the bathroom. I took a proper shower, which I hadn't had one in months, before dried myself and put my clothes on. I took the blazer from the drawer and started shaving my face. After I was done, I walked back to my bedroom, grabbed my phone and turned it on. I never bothered to turn it on because I knew everyone would start looking for me. The first thing that appeared was Emma's and I picture. We looked so happy back then, but unfortunately, those things would never ever happened again. First, Emma was now gone. As much as it hurt, she would never came back. Second, I wasn't going to be the old Jason anymore. I had to change. I didn't want to be the old weak Jason McCann anymore. I looked at the picture one more time before changed it into something else. I deleted every single pictures I had with Emma or just Emma's ones. I had to delete everything about Emma from now on and just pretended Emma never existed.
I ignored all texts and deleted every single of it then shoved it into my pocket. I packed my dirty clothes into a bag and placed it over my shoulder before walked out from the cabin. After I locked the door and put it under the mat, I headed to the van. I threw my stuffs on the backseat before started the engine. Jason McCann is now stronger and meaner. I need to make sure everyone knows that, I reminded myself before raced to go back to the old house.
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Five hours of driving was tired as f-ck. I didn't bother to stop for only a second. I needed to head back as soon as I could. I unlocked the door using the keys I got from the van and got in. It was dark so I assumed it was either no one was home or all of them were in the second floor. I was heading to my room quietly to get some rest, but I heard someone called my name. I groaned loudly before turned around and saw Alex, who was standing in front of his room which was across from mine, staring at me with wide eyes. I snapped my fingers in front of his face but earned no respond. I did it a few times but kept earning the same thing so I gave up and walked into my room.
"Wait, Jason!" I heard Alex yelled before I closed the door.
"Yes?" I asked, annoyed.
He took a deep breathe before started to yell. This was why I was planning to get into my room quietly. "Where the fuck have you been Jason McCann?! You went missing for months without any news and then suddenly came back?! I fucking demand you to tell all of us the fucking truth!" By the time he stopped yelling, everyone was in the hall looking at me with wide eyes. I rolled my eyes. Thank you Alex for bringing everyone's attention. Note my sarcasm.
"Jason! Where have you been?!"
"You went missing for months without any news!"
"How are you?"
"You look different!"
"Jas-"
I cut everyone's question by yelling loudly for them to stop. I was glaring at every single one of them. For fuck's sake, I was driving five hours straight and now I was tired as fuck, but of course they wouldn't leave me alone! "Stop with the questions! I am tired. Let me take a rest!" I yelled them slammed the door on their faces. They needed to know that I fucking need a rest.
"We will talk about this tomorrow Jason! No buts!"
I groaned and rolled my eyes. I threw the bag on the corner of my room then took off my clothes until I was in boxer before threw myself on the bed and drifted to sleep.
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First chapter of Heartless!
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Heartless (Sequel To Mine) (Discontinued)
Fanfiction"He has changed. He went missing for months without any news, then suddenly came back. The worst thing is he turns into a heartless monster."
