First off, I want to say that I am sorry if I caused anyone any pain. That's not my intent, but this was the best thing to do. It's better this way, I promise. Secondly, I did not do this for attention so don't think that that's what this was about. This was a decision I have been making every day for three years now, but this time I changed my mind. I always told myself, just hold on for one more day. Do it for your best friend. But she is the only one that probably even cares. She is the only person who ever made me want to keep fighting. Unfortunately, keeping all of my secrets has been eating me alive. No pun intended. As I went on, I only found more things I had to keep to myself, and it got harder every day to keep them. My head had been a mess for a long time, and every secret made it worse. Every night I have gone to bed with this on my mind, and every morning I have woken up thinking about it. I don't have a specific reason as to why this all happened to me, but I couldn't take it anymore. Everything in my life just kind of went wrong at some point. There are quite a few people who could probably take partial blame for this. Some were mean. Some were fake. Some were liars, but most just didn't care enough. But don't worry. I won't name names. I will always be too nice for that type of thing, even if I am dead.
