Let Down (Being Heavily Edited)

chapter two

❝Time doesn't heal anything, it just teaches us how to deal with pain.❞

- Francine S.

Aanvi Zenobia

I sat in deep thought laying on my back looking at the ceiling, this was always my problem. I always thought myself into a bad mood, maybe I was the problem. Maybe I was the one thing holding me back from being happy. 

Actually it wasn't a maybe to that, I am the reason I'm not happy. I over think everything. I can never give myself the benefit of the doubt, I'm my own worse critic and now I understood the meaning of the saying. I sighed rolling my eyes, getting frustrated with myself.

"Nobi, you heard us?" Lee asked making me snap back into reality.

"What did you say?" I asked looking at her friend slickly roll her eyes.

"You wanna go to the court down the street? We tired of sitting in the house." Lee stated.

"Right, I didn't get this cute and waste a outfit just for y'all to see." Her friend, Alea, stated. (Ah-Lay-Ah)

"Seriously, I'm fine as hell." Malone agreed. 

"Yeah, we can go." I shrugged not really caring, I needed some fresh air anyway.

I hopped off the bed pulling my jeans up and tying my royal blue air Jordan 1's. I walked ahead of them since they started fixing their hair and doing extra shit if anything I know where the court at. 

"Hey ma," I spoke to Lee's mom as she came through the door just getting off work.

"Hey, daughter, where y'all bout to go?"

"The court down the street, you cooking tonight?"

"Maybe, I don't know I'm tired shit." She shrugged making me laugh. "Where Lee?"

"Upstairs with the diddy bops," I stated making her laugh.

Mrs.Kelly didn't like Alea or Malone, just like me, she said they were ditsy ass followers who couldn't think for themselves, which was true. They also had an opinion about everything, always making us exchange words since I also was very mouthy.

"Here come the dummies now." She mumbled making me laugh as they all walked down the stairs.

"Hey ma, when you get here?" Lee spoke giving her a hug.

"Just now."

"Hey, Ms.Kelly." They spoke in unison while she put on a fake smile and waved. 

"Don't think you coming in this house at 12 something, it's a school night." 

"Okay," Lee spoke giving her a hug again and walking out. 

I walked out first after saying I'll see her later, I didn't even look back to see if they were walking. The court was literally down the street, so it took only three minutes to get there. When I got there it was a few girls and a lot of boys there.

The weather was breaking so I didn't expect anything less.

As soon as we walked through the gate I heard yelling before I saw fist being thrown, Lee and them ran over to see who was fighting along with the crowd. I took my time getting over there as some boys recorded gassing up everything. 

I noticed it was these two girls from my school, most likely fighting over their baby daddy, as usual. I shook my head watching them continue yelling and fighting. Zaire broke up the fight between both of his baby mothers then yelling at them in their face, making me laugh. I shook my head going to sit on the bleachers by myself away from some people so they wouldn't come speak to me.