Reviving Hillary

Prologue

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I remember it like it was yesterday, my heart still aches in the same way as it did. The place where I carried his heart, a heart that I thought I had, is now empty. I feel like a shell of a woman, unwanted and undeserving. The words still playing over and over in my head. My Tommy

"Listen, Hillary, we should end it, it's long overdue," he said with ease. His face was emotionless and the playful Tommy that I fell in love with was nowhere to be found.

"You're joking right?" Couldn't he be serious right? we've been together for 5 years he must be pulling a prank on me or something.

"I found someone and I think we should just end things and move on with our lives, don't make this any harder"

No, you're not leaving me" "I refuse" using a stern voice, I looked at him in his eyes trying to see if he was joking. "Look Hillary don't make this any harder for me please I have to" he's back was still facing me.

"Please whatever it is we can work it out, just don't walk out on me" my voice wavered, my resolve was weakening. He twisted the doorknob.

"No no no, please don't walk away from me" I couldn't bear it

"You don't understand Hillary, it has to be done" "I-I have to" he whispered

" Tommy, you promised me you said that you would never leave me" all I could think about was how he was leaving me

"Please I'll be better, I'll do anything you want me to" I got down on my knees, begging"I need you, Tommy"

"Hilary, I" I was going towards him on my knees, he can't leave me. Not after not after. "Hillary we can't be together okay, it's too late for us" no no no

The tears that I was holding back were now freely pouring out. He is my salvation, my one true love. How will I ever go on without him? He's the air that I breathe.

"Why Tommy why?" I whispered that's all I could do, those were the only words that I could master at that time. I couldn't speak anymore. My voice was hoarse from all the yelling. My eyes were bloodshot red from all the cry and finally, I was too weak, too weak to look after him.

"Tommy is this what you want?" "To break me?" "Talk to me damn it, I deserve more than your damned silence, we've been through too much crap" "I don't deserve this"

"She's pregnant, Hillary I have to do right by her" he couldn't even look at me. That damn coward, my love.

"How long Tommy?"

"Hillary....."

"Tommy, how long have you known?" I was afraid of the answer, but I had to know.

"Four months" he whispered.

"F-four months?" "That's when we lost our baby" "Tommy you didn't, please tell me you didn't"

"I didn't know how to deal with the loss okay, I needed to be comforted too," he said

"That is the reason why we lost our baby in the first place, your lying cheating ways" I couldn't hold it in anymore I wept. I wept for all the times he cheated and I took him back. I wept for my innocent baby, for the heart that he carelessly destroyed. I was so numb

"Did you ever love me?" I whimpered

"You're choosing her? Did I ever stand a chance?" I looked at him and his eyes told me what I needed to know. I was never his choice.

"She gets to have a baby with the man that I love and what do I get?" "Death" I all but whispered. Looking at his face I didn't see the man I fell in love with, all I saw was a man who broke me.

"Tommy you're breaking my heart" I whispered,

"you cheated on me with her and I forgave you" "you said that You'd never hurt me again"

"I gave you my heart, the best years of my life and you gave me what?"

He looked at her with pity in his eyes, "look, Hillary, I have to leave" he came closer "don't even think about it" "get out" I said, pointing towards the door. I had to protect what was left of my dignity.

"Goodbye," he said, in a hushed whisper

All I could do was watch the love of my life leave me, walking out of my life leaving me to fix the pieces.

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