It Was My Time

Fucked Up Day

I wake up in the house that I got drunk in... of course I screwed up again, no wonder mom abandoned me. There was Dantel  in the bed,covered in the sheets that we had sex on. My phone vibrated on the little table next to me, the adoption canter was calling me, I was scared to answer for my hands were shaking as a grabbed the phone, (beep) "hello" "Where are you, you weren't at cerfuw". I hesitated and I needed to make up a lie. "My old friend wanted me to come over and she forgot to sign the pickup paper" I tried to catch my breath but "well get here now" she ended the call, I grabbed my clothes and my purse, I looked back at Dantel. I felt bad leaving him, but it is for the best. As I got the train station I had some pain in my stomach. Dantel had texted me five times, as I got to the adoption center I walked up to the front desk where Slivia worked. She looked mad when I walked by her, she put out her arm and moved her finger back and fourth wanting me to come to her as I tried to escape. I walk back, she growled as she gave me a clipboard with a paper clipped on it. It was every person's nightmare to get this, because it goes into your record, I crumbled the paper and handed Silvia back the clip board, and threw the paper in Silvias trash. I go in my room, and close my door on the other side is pictures of my Biological mom, she gave up on me at 14. Because I started to not go to school, and sneak cigarettes home and in school. Yes I got in trouble but I got punished very brutal. After three years no one wants me. Mostly people want babies more than teens like me. I only had one oppointment with a women and as soon as I told her I smoked before, she left before I could finished the sentence. I lay down in my cot which was clean like always, I couldn't stop thinking about how am I going to get out of here. I close my eyes for a little nap. At 5:00 P. M I wake up with someone sliding a paper under my door, as a pick it up it was the late sheet again. But there was a post-it on the corner, it said (cruble it, and you will have two to sign) smiley face."Ok, gimme a pen" she rolled a pen under my door. I filled out the sheet, I open my door, but over heard Silvias convo with someone "This teen is the best she has some things you'll need to change but over all she is great, her name is Skyler" that was my name, I walk out to Silvias desk and placed it next to her picture of her daughter, which passed away the day after a came here. "Here she is now, Skyler this is Diane, she wants to meet you" I walk over and this Diane was wearing the ugliest clothes ever, she wore a link t-shirt with cakkees. She puts out her hand waiting for me to shake hands. After a convo I hated her, her life sounded like an endlessly hell,  I walk away after I talked to Diane. "I'm sorry Diane, she has had a bad day, maybe talk to her another time" Silvia said as she walked Diane to the door. Diane left the building and Silvia barged into my room "What was that, I thought you wanted to get out of here?" I look at her as I snuggles for I tried to keep I tears  in, Silvia sat next to me on the cot. She rubbed my shoulders and pushed my head to her chest. " why does all the horrible people want me, why did my mom leave me, I want to just disapear" she looks into my eyes "Skyler I bet everyone would want you, just no one can't just get you just like that honey" she rubbed my head a pushes my hair back. She starts to laugh "What, what's so funny Silvia" she stares at the door "she does have horrible clothes" I was shocked it was like she read my mind "did you read my mind" she chuckled "No, I seen the way you looked at her outfit" Silvia Breaded my hair as my eye lids were heavy as a rock. As I drifted to sleep my stomach started to hurt, but as soon as I was in a deep sleep it stopped.