Black Monotony

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April 4th, 2011

Another day in my monotonous life... It's so fun. Honestly, I don't think there's something more entertaining than living the same every day, without any change, without anything new; it's just wonderful. I hope my life stays like this forever. It probably will since it never changes.

My name is Keiichi Sasaki, I'm seventeen and I'm in the last year of high school. I live in Tokyo with my father and my twin brother, in a flat big enough for all three of us. We usually are not visited since my mother's death, ten years ago, in an accident.

"She was crazy". That's what doctors said. My mother went to a lot and all of them said the same. That she was crazy, she insane, she wasn't psychologically well. My father used to say that too. When mum died, he told us everything, revealing every single lie mum told my brother Kazuma and me. Dad said she forced him to marry him and to have a family together, she threated to kill him if he didn't do it. She was crazily in love with him, so much that she lost sanity. After her death, my brother and I feared that dad would leave us. But he didn't, we're still here. He didn't abandoned us, and I'm glad he didn't.

As I said before, I'm a year away to finish high school. I'm preparing to be a child psychologist. I like solving issues during the childhood, because once it starts, there's no turning back. Tomorrow is the first day of school and probably everything will be like it is now. No changes and no alterations, probably everything will stay the same.

Honestly, I wouldn't care about a change in my life. Something new won't harm anyone, will it?

November 17th, 2011

I've decided... I want to live with her. I've decided. I don't care if she doesn't love me... She's mine. She belongs to me and no one else. She can only look at me. She can only touch me. She can only smile at me.

Kyoko Ayatsuji belongs to me. I don't care what other people might think. She is mine. My monotous life has changed... And I love that change... I know what it feels to love now... It's just wonderful, even if your beloved doesn't love you back...

Every time I look at her, I feel my masculine senses waking up... She excites me even if I look at her from miles away... And I love that! But not as much as I love her!

I don't care what I have to do to be with her... Even if I have to kill my own brother, I will do it... Because I want her. I need her.

Kyoko, my beloved... Soon we will be together. I will make you so happy... And you won't see, touch or smile at anyone else but me.

March 23rd, 2012

She's just so pretty... But she doesn't love me... I can't handle this.

If she doesn't want to be with me, she won't be with anyone else. If she doesn't love me, she won't love anyone else.

My black monotony will end today.

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I'm sorry if there are any mistakes, it's the first story I write in English.

I hoped you like the prologue, even though there are a few spoilers... Sorry about that, otherwise it wouldn't be very interesting. ^^"

As you read in the description, this story was inspired by the song "Anata no Tame no Kono Inochi" by the GazettE. (The title means "My life for you".)

See you next time! Please tell me what you think.

By: Kiyomi-chan